Making Megan

GLEE - Mash up umbrella~!

2011-04-26T21:35:00.000-07:00

Easter

2011-04-25T18:53:00.001-07:00

US. . . AWWWW :)

OUR LITTLE FAM

MATT AND K DOG

SQUIRT AND I . . . DOESN'T HE LOOK EXCITED.. . . OH BOY.

GETT'N READY FOR CHURCH!

OUR SUNDAY BEST

Easter Baskets!

2011-04-18T17:34:00.000-07:00

Every year, mom makes us an Easter basket. We even got one this year! She sent us a box in the mail, and when we opened it up, there were probably 10 little eggs inside! The card said for Matt to open the blue and green eggs, and for me to open the pink and purple ones.
Matt and I had so much fun opening them. Everytime we opened one, there was a little surprise inside. Some of them had chapstic, some had candy, some had tea, and some had money. It was so much fun! We even got t-shirts!
Thanks mom!

Growing up

2011-04-04T20:59:00.000-07:00

Well, I would offically say that Matt (my hubby) and I feel pretty grown up now.

For the past couple of months, we have been struggling where we are going to live for the next 5-10 years of our lives. It all depended on if he got a certin job or not. He kept calling the company to try to find out more on what their hiring status was, but they just kept telling him that they would let him know, or to call back in a month to check, ect . . .ect. . . it was getting very old, and very frustrating for both of us. For me, I hated seeing him go to work every day to a job he hated, (he came home grouchy!) and if we were going to move, I would have to start over with my nursing stuff, yet again.
But today if finally happened.
He got a call from the company saying that he couldn't offically say welcome abord, but please fill these forms out that allow you to start working for us. The HR guy said to "read between the lines", so we assume that he got a job there.
We were both so relieved, but the first thing he asked was, "is it ok with you if we stay here for a while? Would that make you happy?"
I was feeling so blessed already, and that just made me feel more so. That in the height of his excitement, he wanted to make sure that I was ok with where his carreer was taking us. I said of coarse it was ok. (then of coarse, I had flashes of mom and dad, sisters and family that I would be away from.) It made me a little sad, but I think God has a plan for us. Matt said that he never dreamed in a million years that he would be able to work for this company, but now, (fingers crossed!) he will. Matt applied for them when he first graduated, but the only company that offered him a job was down in Texas. As reluctant as he was to move, its what we did. Now, becuase we were living down here, we knew of the opening with this better firm. We never would have known it if we wernt living down here. God works his ways, and I can't wait to see what He has in His plan for us.

Britt Nicole - The Lost Get Found

2011-02-26T22:00:00.000-08:00

Bring The Rain by mercy me. Great lyrics!

2011-02-23T17:09:00.000-08:00

God help me. Give me guidence

2011-01-29T21:25:00.000-08:00

I have been back and forth for years, seiriously,years, about what to do for a profession. I have been back and forth dozens of times between teaching and nursing, it makes me dizzy.
It makes me even more sick to think that in just 2 short years, my little sis, the one who is almost 10 years younger than I am, will be going to college to get a profession. It would really make me sick to think that she would get it figured out before I do.
(don't get me wrong, bec, full steam ahead for you. I am the one who needs to get my butt in gear.)
When I am thinking of things, I think of the very best of it, and then once I start doing it, I think the very worst of it.
Teaching, for example.
Pros: kids are great. They are funny, cute, and little. (I seriously am envisioning the kids from Barney or something.) They will listen to everything I have to say, and I will make such a huge impact on their lives, they will come back when they are 18 and thank me for being a turning point in their lives.
Plus, you get summers, weekends, and holidays off!
Neg: Kids, for the most part, are NOT cute, NOT polite, and DO NOT pay attention.You either have the kids who simply dont care, or you have the wildly disruptive kids that you just want to say, "seriously, YOU were conceived for what reason?" Plus, the parents are a whole different animal all together.
"Why isn't Johnny reading up to par? You must be doing your job wrong. . . wah wah wah."
Plus, teachers don't actually get off weekends and holidays. They have to use that time to grade papaers, come up with new lesson plans, ect.
This is all considering that I will have a job once I graduate. Teacher jobs don't exactlly grow on trees, you know.

Nursing
This, I have been struggling with since 17. (8 years latter, and still, who'd have thought?)
Pros: can work whatever I want practaclly wherever I want. HUGE right now, considering 10 % of America is out of work.
I would get paid really really good. Could finnaly be independent.
Could travel, move, anywhere, and still be able to get a job.
Cons: Eeew. I do NOT like bodilly fluids. They are just icky. You should be responsible for your own. Period. Luckly, I think CNAs do this work, so I can't really use this as an excuse.
The biggest con is school. I don't know for sure if I will ever get in to the program. I tried to sit down and study for an online class, and I had to look up words, and then had to look up words in the definition. It was very frustrating.
I don't know what to do!
I feel like I am just wasting time, but don't know what to do about it. I can't quit my job and go to school. What if I don't get in? Then I would be jobless for no reason. I would just me a jobless, unaccepted student with no direction.
Help, Lord! I need it badly.

JJ Heller - What Love Really Means

2011-01-11T19:03:00.000-08:00

What I love about Christmas

2010-12-08T18:42:00.000-08:00

Here are a few things that I love about getting ready for Christmas:

Hot drinks! Not only can we finnaly snuggle up with a hot beverage, but we get to drink them out of special Christmas cups! Eeee!

Nativity scene. I love them! I have about 4 or 5, but this one is special because it reminds me of my mom's nativity scene.

Poinsettas! These were always around our house growing up, as Im sure they were around many people's houses growing up, and this year, Matt bought me one for a surprise! Love it!

Lights! What more is there to say?!

Woo hoo! What takes up the entire free space of your guarage/cubby hole/attic? Christmas decorations!

Christmas tree! This year is the first year we don't have a real one, but we still decorated the crap out of it! The theme is Noriegan. (You know, scandanavian. . . I have no idea how to spell. Sorry mom. I know you are cringing.)

Wall hanging! I don't know, I just like this thing. Wall hangings, wreaths, everything accounts as this.

Last but not least, LOVE! Christmas is all about love, so share it with everyone!!!

2010-12-05T17:49:00.001-08:00

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Comfort moments

2010-12-04T06:17:00.000-08:00

Id like to think everyone has them. It is a specific moment in time, normally in your childhood, that when you think of it, it always brings you comfort. It is a time of pure zen and happiness. (That's why I think all of my comfort moments are in my childhood. Much less stress then!)

My comfort moments differ from person to person.

My comfort moment with my mom is when I was probobly seven, and my dad and I had just gotten back from Christmas shopping. Mom was sitting down stairs in our little house getting out all the Christmas decorations with Lisa, who at the time was probably 4ish. She had the record player (yes, record!) playing with the carpenters Christmas hits. I don't know why this spicific moment is so comforting to me. After all, I wasn't really involved in it at all, but when I think about "the joys of Christmas" or "joy of childhood" this always comes to mind. And it always makes me very happy. If I am having a stressful day, it always gives my brain a break for a couple of seconds.

My comfort moment with my dad is when he was working on his old bronco. He was changing the oil, and again, I was just observing, but I really liked watching him.

A whole family zen moment was when we went for bike rides. More to the point, when we got HOME from bike riding. Let me explain.
When I was little, Mom only let us have 1 soda pop a week. Since she didn't want us staying up till God knows when during the weeknites, (well played, mom) we were only allowed it on either Saturday or Sunday.
Wondering what biking and soda pop have to do with one another?
When we got back from our bike rides, everyone would grab a soda. Mom with her Fresca, Dad with his mountian dew, and Lisa and I always had Hawiian punch. Yeeess!! The moment that I put that fruity flavor in my mouth was the best. We had just worked very hard from our bike ride, and now we were all panting and recovering with a family soda.
Sigh.
It was magical.

Remember the Alamo!

2010-11-07T16:39:00.000-08:00

This weekend, Matt and I went down to San Antonio. It was so beautiful, and we learned alot too! We took one of those guided tour boats, (they were only $8 a person!) and spent a half hour drifting lazily down the river, with our guide telling us about San Antonio.

A Camp'n we will go

2010-10-24T15:28:00.000-07:00

The Gang

The Happy Camper

Do you see our tent?

The view

The view again

Me

Matt

Matt trying to lift Kody, Kody not too happy about it.

Squirt was much more compliable

The Boys

Chicken wings, and other football things

2010-10-12T19:17:00.000-07:00

This last Sunday, I thought to myself, "Ok, what do I like about watching football?" The answer?
Food!
I love snacking on all the greasy goodness. We made chicken wings, chips and (homade!) salsa, and jalapeno poppers.
Matt went over to a buddy's house where they had jalapeno poppers. We easily made them, and they were delicious! Here's what you do:
Get around 6-10 jalapenos. Cut them in half long-ways, from stem to tip. Once they are in half, scoop all the seeds out. (Jalapeno should look like a boat.)
Next, fill the jalapeno with cream cheese and top with shreaded chedder cheese. Then wrap it in bacon.
Place on a cookie sheet at 400 degrees for about 30 minnutes, or until the bacon looks done.
Here's what they should look like

Tasty, huh? Looks like a heart attack ready to happen!
And beware that every time you open the oven, your house will smell like roasting chillies.
ALSO beware, that if you have any cuts or scrapes on your hand, it will BURN!!!
But, tada!!!

Finnished football snacks!

Plus, Matt really enjoyed them, which made me happy. :)

Squirty, of coarse, was rooting for the Broncos.

One

2010-09-17T19:59:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, when life really sucks, it can take one person to turn it around. When your top is stopped, they get it spinning.
Sometimes, it takes a few people. A couple of phone calls, some chit chat,
to turn your mud hole into a mud spa.
Sometimes, it will even be your dog. The way it always looks up at you like you are the world.
Sometimes, it can take a whole bunch of good events to cancel out the one bad one.
But there is always that one.
The one person
The one instance
The one message
That will compelatly turn everything that was sour,
sweet.

New Pictures!

2010-09-16T23:22:00.000-07:00

Last weekend was my birthday, 25, thankyou very much. Matt took me a place that we could go "hiking", or as much hiking you can do in Texas. Turns out, it overlooks the river, and on that river is a really cool bridge! We even went at sunset. How romantic is THAT?!

Very exciting whenever I have new pictures.

25 now

2010-09-09T22:19:00.000-07:00

Well, it is now 12:19am, and I am offically 25 years old. It would be easy to say that I haven't accomplished much up until now, but in my life, I HAVE.
I have gotten married, been through one of the darkest points in my life, and survived. I have moved three times in the last 2 and a half years. (For a person not fond of change, that is a big one!)During those times, I have met and made friends with many people I still have close at heart, and am still in contact with. and have a job that alows me to transfer. I have raised two well behaved (most of the time!) adorable puppies. I have become comfortable in my faith, and finally taking the time to explore it.
AND . . .
Ready???
I found what I want to do. It took me a while, and yes, it would have been cool if I found it out WHILE I was actually in school, but hey, I don't think of it as time lost. At that point, at that time, I had no idea what I wanted to do. At that time, I thought the best option was flying half way around the world with the peace core, tending to sick people. (yeah yeah, laugh. It seemed like a really good idea at the time!
And the time I spent at my current job is just helping me be comfortable with confrontation and directing people.
Now, I know for a fact that I want to be an ESL (english as a second language) teacher. These poor kids get uprooted from their mexican homes by their parents who come to America, and put the kids in school without a clue how to speak any english. Thats where I come in! The freindly teacher that will help them on their way, teaching them english, school stuff, life. . . .
Ah, the glory.
In the time I spent looking back, I have just come to realize I have become an adult. (gasp!)
Married, have a job, have a home, have a family, (I count dogs as family), have a plan. Some how, I made it to this phase. Thank God and all the people who helped be a part of it and kept me on the right path and on my way.

Yay for dogs

2010-09-08T12:56:00.000-07:00

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Blogs that make me happy

2010-09-08T09:25:00.000-07:00

Here are a few blogs that just make my day.
This one, http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com/search/label/Oh%20Poop my friend Heather sent to me. In her earlier blog, she shows cool wedding cakes, but this page was so funny! The cakes people come up with . . .

This one, it inspires my creative side! http://kingofmicestudios.blogspot.com/2010/07/metamorphosis.html . I love all the colors she uses, and I love that her main theme is halloween!

And its not a blog, but http://cuteoverload.com/ has some pretty amazing cuteness on it. If you haven't, check out the otters! They are jumping and squeaking like mad!

New box!

2010-09-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

The past few weeks in pictures

2010-08-29T13:45:00.000-07:00

About 2 weeks ago, our buddy Ray and his friend Denver drove down here from Colorado. It was so good to see them! The puppies were happy too!!!

We all went out to eat at a chicken wings place, where Matt and Denver entered and won the right to be on the "Wall of Flame". I have never seen anyone sweat that much! They had to eat 25 hot hot hot chicken wings, and keep it down. They both did it, but they felt reeeeeeealy sick afterwards! Matt speued in the parking lot, (where two unfortunate men stepped in it as we were driving away,) and Denver passed out on our wooden floor. Ouch!

They were all gone 'n goofy that night!

My family has been so great! They send me little things to let me know they're thinking of me. Stamps, return lables, pictures, postcards, and other fun things! The other week, my little sis made me some earings! They are red, for work, so I can be "stylish". :)

Ive been really into reading fairy tales lately. They are just a great way to unwind and reminds you of when you are a kid. Here I checked out fairy tales from across the world, and many of the traditional ones that we know, (snow white, cinderella, beauty and the beast,) came from european countries, such as Germany and France. However, they are told a bit more grotesquely. (Cinderella's sisters saw off parts of their feet to get the slipper to fit!

And just yesterday, Matt and I went to the "fancy" part of austin. There were mansion-type houses, and they were all around 700,00. A house like that in Colorado would be alteast 1.5 or so. They were so pretty! And even with a lake view. woo hoo!
We hiked around the lake for a bit, then we went home. It was under 100 degrees, so we counted our blessings!

Last but not least, I got a hair cut. Nothing drastic, but I added a few more layers around my face, and cut about an inch off. Its a bit more curly now. Not much, but it made me happy! :)

Ran out

2010-08-19T06:53:00.001-07:00

Ok, for those of you who know me, I like to run. I have jogged every day since we got here. Even in the blistering heat, when I cant see because Im sweating so much, I have ran.
Until a few days ago.
I don't know what happened!
One morning, i just didn't feel like running, and the next day, I didn't feel like it either!
This morning, I was like, "Ok, you HAVE to go today." So I went, but when I hit the 1/4th mile marker, I was like, "I want to go back! I want to go back! Im tiered! My legs arn't up for this! Im not even AWAKE yet!!!" But I plunged on. (Mostly because I had my dogs, and if I would have turned back, they would have killed me.) I only ran 1 mile, opposed to my 3, but it was all that I could do.
Mabye Im burnt out, but I didn't think that could happen with running! I was doing so good! Hummm . . . mabye its fatiuge. . . who knows.

Arn't these cool?

2010-08-19T05:55:00.000-07:00

I was in Barns and Noble yesterday, and was looking through some craft magazines, and these artists had blog pages! I am alrelady in the mood for Halloween! Hope you enjoy!
The names of the artists are on the bottom of every corner, so if you want to check out more of their stuff, just go to their blog!

This one reminded me of my little sis. Everyone calls her "Rabbit".

A pair of ghouls!

These two are my favorite. A little witch . . .

And Marie Antonite!

Hope you have enjoyed them as much as I did! They inspire me to be crafty and holiday themed!

What's love got to do with it?

2010-08-16T18:39:00.000-07:00

Turns out, a lot.
I just witnessed the most beautiful sunset.
It had just rained this afternoon, and the clouds were still overhead, some scattered and skinny, but most of them were so puffy, they seemed to take up the entire sky. Its like when you microwave marshmallows and they get really big but still have those soft formations of their outer perimeter.
Because of the clouds, there was no direct sunlight, just what little light streamed through the clouds, and reflected off neighboring ones. The sky was such a deep blue, it looked like the ocean had decided to go to the sky instead of the earth.
Then, sunset.
Pinks and purples, blues, and when you looked at the sun, it was a magnificent orb of orange fire. The earth seemed illuminated. I looked up at the brilliance of the sky and its oray of colors, and then looked back down to survay the earth around me.
It was like when you are in bed and only have a lamp on for reading. It was that soft glow that you could still see everything, but everything seemed softer some how.
I wish I had my camera, but I know I wouldn't have been able to capture it anyway. There was just too much.
In the end walking home, Matt and I held hands and said how beautiful it was.
The thing is, it is so much more beautiful if you have someone to share it with.

For all girls!

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Texas State History Museum

2010-08-02T13:41:00.000-07:00

Branched out today, and went on an adventure!
I really have been wanting to go to the Texas Museum since we have been here, but Matt isn't really a big history buff, so I had to take a day and go on my own. Much more difficult than it seems though, because to get there, you have to drive downtown, which is full of one way streets, weird parking, and pedestrians everywhere.
I finally felt comfortable enough to go there today. Hurray for me!
Finding a place to park was a nightmare, but after I did, I was on my way in.

There is this HUGE star right infront of it. Its kind of intimidating, actually. I guess everything is bigger in Texas.
Looked around for a bit, ok, a 2 hour bit, and by that time I was freezing. People here keep their air conditioners up too high! My lips were blue!
The history started out with the native americans that were inhabiting Texas until all the Spanish came and took it over. Then the mexicans took it over. Then the anglos took it over. Then the germans took it over. Finally, it merged with the United states, and they were right back to being seperated again because they sided with the south in the civil war, who were "seperate" from the union of the U.S. It went through the Alamo (we lost) and the capture of Sana Anna, (the guy who won the alamo, hah!) to women who participated during the women's rights movement, and finally, to the cowboy.
This was the most interesting part, because it is what captured people's attention. As much as it is romanacized in Hollywood, the cowboy's (also known as vacaros) life was a hard one. However, with the publication and advertizement of open range, endless acers, and the cowboy, people flocked here.

I was having a great time until I went back through to take pictures for my bolg. Then this old, shrivled lady came and said I wasn't alowed to take pictures. You old prune, I still got some - HAH!

To all that I've accomplished, I give thanks to God

2010-08-01T20:24:00.000-07:00

More times than not, I look at what I DON'T have in life instead of what I do have. Tonight, After some dinner with neighbors, the father and his 4 year old daughter took Matt and I to go downtown and watch the bats come out.
There is a bridge downtown that the engineer accedenilly made into a perfect habitat for bats. You see, the crevices that are used for the bridge design are perfect for bat habitats. So at dusk, you see thousands and millions of bats fly out. It really is a sight to behold.
After we got back, and got ready for bed, I started thinking about how great everything is.
I have done everything that I had set out to do.
I have gone to England with my sister the year
I graduated college. That was a fantastic trip. I saw everything I have ever wanted to see and more. Plus, who better to understand me and my travel woes than a sister?
I got married.
I remember stressing out so bad when I was 16 because so many girls were dating, and I wasn't, and I was so afraid that I would end up an old maid and no one would ever marry me. (That I wanted at least!) Now, I am about to celebrate my 2 year aniversery this September!
I moved down to Texas
It was one of those goals that you want to do, but really don't think you ever will. My cousin's wife is from down here, and quite a few celebrities, and all you ever hear is good things about Texas, so for a while, I wanted to live down here. I know that God was really helping me out on this one, because we wouldn't have moved down here if it wern't the only place that offered Matt a job. And out of the 5 interviews that he had, (one of which he worked for the previous Summer,) this is the one he got. We HAD to move. I know I wouldn't have gotten Matt down here any other way, so I know this was God working his magic, helping me fulfill one of my dreams. Now, Texas hasn't been how I have imagined it, but I have never done so much in my life. Because we know we are only going to be here for a year, we are snatching up everything that Texas has to offer. We have hiked in 100 degree weather while it is humid, (mabye 50 percent?) went to some GREAT mexican resturants, watched bats come out in the middle of downtown, and swam in the river with my puppies. Last night, we even went to a place called "The Alamo". It is a movie theatre where you can order food and drinks while you watch a 3-d movie. It was so cool.
Something to try when down here: fried pickles. Delicious.
We are truely "Carpe Diem" or "Seizing the day" while we are here. Tomarrow, I am going to a museum, and then in a couple weeks, we are going tubing.
God has truely blessed me with many wonderful things in my life, and has now given me the blessing of being able to see them.

I love this song!

2010-07-27T20:09:00.000-07:00

This song is wonderful! Brit Nicole begins a journey, stopping when she sees troubled people, and taking a chance and telling them about Christ. Its so inspiring, and a great song.

Making the most out of the day.

2010-07-11T20:10:00.000-07:00

Those of you who know me know that my job is NOT going well. Infact, it is the opposite of going well. Mean customers, disrespectful co-workers, and bosses who just don't give a damm.
Needless to say, its a little hard to get up and going in the morning of days I have to work. Today though, I realized "hey, Im only here for a year, I have to make the most of it! I only (pshh, "only", yeah right) work 8 hours out of the day, and it is a weekend! COME ON!!!!
When I got home, I grabbed Matt and the dogs, and went to Barton Springs, which is really a river. (With sea weed, gross!)We had a great time. Squrit attempted to swim to shore, (I have a video of it down below! Just make sure you hit "Full Screen" and "Play")Kody chased after these people who were trying to play volly ball, and I got to relax and be in the cool water while it was 98 degrees out! It was so much fun.
Friday night, we went to Jardin Carona, which has the BEST mexican food so far. My judgment may have been a bit impared though. Because it was a long wait, we had a few drinks from the bar, and didn't get seated till 9pm. We were feeling pretty good. :P
So, even though I had to work, I really enjoyed this weekend and all it had to offer

Squirts Swim attempt

2010-07-11T20:05:00.000-07:00

July 4th weekend

2010-07-05T04:46:00.001-07:00

Matt and I have been looking at fun stuff to do in Texas, and we came across some beautiful pictures of Mckenny National Park. It had 2 waterfalls, numerous trails, and lots of naturey stuff. :)
We drove up there on Saturday, it was dog friendly, so we took the boys, and bought a seasonal pass. We figured it was good for a whole year, it will get us into all the parks, and it'll have itself payed off in no time.
Not so sure anymore.
When we were looking at the map, we were feeling really ambitious that day, and decided to hike the 3 mile trek. Mind you, in Texas, in the summer, running about 100 degrees plus humidity. We forgot to take this into account.
We started hiking, and it was really beautiful. Kind of like a scene from "Lord of the Rings". We hiked about a half a mile, and a huge tree is blocking the path. Do we take it as a sign to turn around?
No.
We jump over it, and continue on. About a mile latter, Matt almost stepped on a pair of "sticks", only they wern't sticks, they were bugs! Really, really weird, abnormal icky looking bugs.
*shudder*
Still didn't turn around.
About half way there, there were grasshoppers buzzing so loud, you had to yell to be heard. It was crazy, because it was such a consistant buzz, you didn't even realize it until you opened your mouth to speak, and any words you try to say get drowned out by grasshoppering.
We must have looked pretty funny, because Matt and I kept swatting ourselves - bugs or no- ultra paranoid.
The last 1/2 mile, my poor Squirt just layed down, and looked at me like, "Im not goign any further. Its hot and icky, and its crazy to be hiking when its 100 degrees out!"
So I picked him up and carried him the rest of the way. He might have been hipervetalating. Don't know.
When we finally got to the waterfalls, they were itty bitty! If I stood on the surface of the water, I would have been as tall as the waterfall. And there was trash in the water! EEeew!!!!!!!!!
Still, people were swimming, having a good ole time, but since we had the dogs, we couldn't go in.
I would go back just to go and wade around in the water, but no more hiking and bugs!

On to the acctual 4th of July.
I aggreed to work that day, because it was time in a half. So, got up at 5, showed up at 6, and worked till noon. Wasn't soo bad.
I then got home, took a shower, and we decided to go down to the community center where they were having bbq corn on the cob, watermellon, and all sorts of good things. They even had a chinise booth set up, which was werid, considering it was the forth of July, but whatever.
We bumped into our neighbors, and we found out it was free pool day!!! How exciting!!! We went swimming, ate afterwards, and went home and waited for it to get dark.
We walked over to the dog park/greenbelt with our neighbor and their kid, and watched them from there. They were kind of far away, but I didn't feel like being in a crowd anyway. At the end, Hannah, the little girl, gave me part of her necklace to wear as a bracelett! It was one of those ones that glow in the dark, that break apart and then reattach to themselves.
I have never seen a 4 year old give her toys away to someone else. It was an awsome experiance. It was so selflessss, I will treasure that peice of plastic forever. :)

Rain, Rain,

2010-07-01T10:26:00.001-07:00

As all of you are aware, there is a huricane comming to the southern part of Texas. Luckly, I am not in the southern part, but we have been seeing the rain! It has been glorious!!!

Through my eyes

2010-06-20T15:33:00.000-07:00

These are like lilac bushes, except they are trees!

My feet

Desert Rose?

Ahh! Aloe vera!

The track I run with the dogs

Close up of the trees

Kody and me

Me :)

Down at Barton springs

2010-06-20T14:33:00.000-07:00

Today being fathers day, we decided it best to avoid ANY resturants at all, so we took the nature route for the day. We decided to drive down to Barton Springs. It is our second time going there. That being said, we did not bring Squirt.
Barton springs is a lazy river that you can swim in and take your dogs in so that they can swim also. It is lined by numerous bike/running trails, and the water is so clear that you can see the mossy bottom. If you are standing far away, the water looks turqoise. Very pretty.
Not for Squirt. Last time we took him, we thought he might enjoy getting cooled down, but he did not and would not go into the river on his own. So I picked him up, and carried him out to the center where there was a little island of rocks. Mabye about a foot from it, I set him down in the water. I stood back so he would swim towards the rocks, and not towards me. You would think, from some sort of survival instinct, dogs would know how to swim. Nope. Not squirt. All 4 of his legs were going, and they were not syncronized, so he was just barely managing to stay above water. There was no way he was getting to those rocks. After a couple seconds, he managed to move a couple of inches, and I said, "Good boy, squirt! Keep going!"
Mistake #1.
Instead of going just a little bit further, he clumsly turned around, and headed for me. When he reached me, he scratched the shit out of my legs tring to get me to pick him up.
I picked him up out of the water, and he was shaking all over. Fear? Adreniline? Anger? Who knows. I carried him for a little bit, but I wanted to swim too, so I set him on the little islands of rocks. The minnute I did, he was whinning, and when I started to go away, he started howling!!!
Needless to say, I spent the rest of my time in the river with a little, soking wet, chicken-of-a-dog in my arms.
When Matt and Kody were good to get out, I made my way over to the edge to get out. As I was getting out, I noticed I had scratches all over my legs, stomach, and perminent claw marks in my shoulder where squirt was hangnign on for dear life. Yup, I was bleeding. I wasn't the only one to notice. A kyaker came over and said,"Hey, you might want to check yourself for leeches. There are some in this river."
Of coarse there was.

So today, we went without squirt, but it was a lot less entertaining.

Down on 6th Street

2010-06-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

For those of you who don't know, 6th street is, like, THE place to be. It is where all the cool shops are,all the bars are, and where all the live bands play. So when we moved here, we HAD to go down!
I got in my hippie glammor, and went down town to party!
But first, we had to walk a few blocks.
Or 12.
Or 15.
At one point, a bum helped us out.
Ok, we made it! We were "on the strip. Every bar we passed, there were bouncers urging us in.
"No cover!"
"$2 drinks!"
There were tons of either hookers, or college students who just like to show their ass. . . ets. Yes, there assets. In tight, strappless, leather dresses that have a danger of exploding off if they turn the wrong way.
As we were walking down, I asked Matt which bar he wanted to go into.
"That one looks fun!" He said, and pointed to one across the street.
It did look pretty amusing. The band was playing a funky tune, and the lead singer had a pink boa around his neck.
Heck. Why not.
So we crossed the street, showed the bouncer our IDs, and went in. I went to get a spot so we could see the band, and matt got us drinks. While I was waiting, two guys went up to the front of the stage and started dancing; with eachother. It then hit me that we were probobly in a gay bar. Riiiiight. Nice choice, babe.
Well, when Matt came up with my beer, he said, "I think this is a gay bar! This guy kept "bumping" into me, I had to tell him to knock it off!!!"
It is very difficult to be sympathetic while you are laughing that hard.
After we finnished our beers, we headed to another bar down the street.
We just caught the end of the show, but the main guitar guy's beard/gotee could have stood on its own! It looked like a white stump comming out of his chin. WEIRD.
They were pretty good! We stayed till the end of the show, and then stayed while the next band set up and played a few tunes.
By that time, the alchahol, walking, and loud music got to me.
"Im ready to go if you are." I said, and we treaked our long walk back to the car.

2010-06-17T16:08:00.000-07:00

I wish that my "weirdness" was viewed as cute and spunky, (original!) instead of something that outcasts me from society/home.

New House pics!

2010-06-16T15:11:00.000-07:00

South Carolina Pictures!!!

2010-06-16T14:54:00.001-07:00

Its 6am. 24 hours till traveling time!

2010-06-07T05:09:00.000-07:00

Ack. Packing. At first, my whole house was swallowed up in boxes, and now it is so empty that it echos when someone talks. It is so WEIRD!
Yesterday was the official truck loading day. It took all day, but at the end, we were able to fit everything in, so we didn't have to make unwilling trips to goodwill! Yay!
Thank you neighbors, for bringing over lunch. Much better than pizza. Thank you boys, for carrying all the heavy stuff us whipy girls couldn't, and thank you so much dad, for packing the darn thing! If it wern't for you, I don't think that we could have gotten it all in!
Thank you mom, for comming today. Eventhough you haven't gotten here yet, you always do something amazing that is in need of a thankyou.
I was all paranoid that I would miss my dad leaving, and because there is no clock in our bedroom, (packed) I got up. Now, I am diluionally tiered. Coffee. Starbucks. Must get. . .

South Carolina, Day 3

2010-05-27T05:43:00.000-07:00

Myrtle Beach again! Except we were a little sunburned, so we didn't go to the actuall beach, just around it. And we didn't wake up till 10, so we didn't get there till noon. :)
Our big thing we did was going to a seafood buffet! I vowed to try everything, from blackened samon, to mussles, to stuffed deviled crab. I even had shrimp and grits, which, from our host, is a real southern specalty. I only stopped when I had a BAD salad. It was supposed to be a coconut shrimp salad, but I bit down, and it tasted like paint. "Ok," I said, "just swallow and move on." But one more bite almost did me in for an up-cuck. I spit it out into my napkin, and moved on to cake. I couldn't do anymore seafood. Even now it makes me sick. Yuck.
One thing I will say thoughh, unlimited crab legs were awsome! And their hush puppies were to die for! They were kind of sweet to begin with, and then they had this honey butter that you dipped them into. yuummmmmmm.
Needing to burn off some crab calories, we went and played minerature golf. If you ever drive "the strip" on myrtle beach, you will know there is a minerature golf course every block. So we stopped in and played a few games. It was so pretty. It was like we were in hawaii. All the flowers everywhere, vines growning over all the rocks, palm trees, it was great. Every hole was secluded, and was just really relaxing to do.
After a bit more shopping, we went back to the acyuall beach. It was cloudy, and it was a full moon, and it was so beautiful just reflecting off the waves of the ocean. I have never seen anything so peaceful and beautiful as the moonlight reflecting off the ocean, as I walked barefoot through the sand.

South Carolina, Day 2

2010-05-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

These days were spent blissfuly onhe beach!
We woke up early, packed our swimwear, and took an hour and a half drive down to Myrtle Beach.
Along the way, there were several outlet stores, which we stopped at and shopped tremendously. Matt is still intent on getting me a new, "sexy" bathingsuit, and I was set on getting whatever looked good. I got a couple pairs of pants from Eddie Bawer, jewelry and a tank from Rue 21, and almost got a bathing suit from Lucky.
We packed some sandwitches for lunch, and after we ate, we were on to the beach!
Perhaps it is a good thing we didn't find a bathingsuit, because the one I had on, which was more sturdy than others, kept falling off! We walked out into the ocean, which, was surprisingly warm, and wadded out into right where the waves start to turn over. After "jumping" waves, (where you hop up right when the wave is going over you, and you kind of float there for a second,) a huge, monsterous wave came, and knocked me down. I got a mouth full of sand water, and the rest of the beach got a free view of my ladies, meaning that my swim top was up around my throat. I quickly pulled it down, but a minnute latter I was in the same situation. It just would not stay up!!! Waves kept knocking me down, and even if I got up, my swim suit would not.
Everytime I got knocked over, the lifeguard would come running towards us, but then he would see me get up, and start to walk slowly back. Then I would get knocked over again, and he would come running, and walk slowly back.
I think he just wanted a look at my titties.
After we got done swimming, we hurried back to the car, and changed into our street clothes. (Hello, sand in the bra~!) We walked the board walk and hit up some other cool stores, most of which were, of coarse, for tourists. Matt and I "shared" a snowcone, but I ate most of it because I swallowed about half of the ocean, and was partched.
We saw some cool stores with funny tee shirts. One said "the more I am around people, the more I like my dog." Made me think of Squirt!
If we wern't moving, I would have gone nuts, because there was this lighthouse store with cool cool stuff. Lighthouse mirrors, lighthouse coasters, everything and anything.
For dinner, we splurged and went to Dolly Parton's Dixie Stampeed. It was the same manner of Mideival Times, if any of you have ever been there, only a western version. For those of you who havent, you sit in this big arena, and eat dinner while a show is preforming. There were wagon trains, indian dances, and the north and the south competitions. These competitions consisted of pigglet raciing, chicken chasing, and ponies, (little tiny ones!) going around and around the track as fast as they could go.

South Carolina, Day 1, Part 2

2010-05-24T18:18:00.000-07:00

Going to bed now! Although we didn't go to the Civil War museum, I had a great day. We went shopping at tons of stores, had a great dinner, and it was fun just to hang out with the family and NOT travel. It was kind of like a catch-your-breath day.
When we went shopping, we went to a store called the "Piggly Wiggely". Not making this up. It is like a King Soopers, or City Market. It was so funny. I took a picture of it. There is a big store in town, and a little store on the edge. The locals refer to these as the "Big Pig" and the "Little Pig". Sooo funny.
After that, Matt took me bathing suit shopping. He picked out all these little binknis for me to try on, and insisted that we got one. Dianne even gave us some "fun" money, so we decided to spend it on that.
I must have tried on 50 + bathingsuits today!
I found one both he and I liked, but they didn't have my size in the bottoms. Bummer. But I still had a blast!
When we were at a store, this lady, who I didn't know, turned to me and asked, "Y;all been to old navy? I heard they were hav'n a sale."
It was so funny that people are so un-shy here. Everyone is so nice, it is increadible. I think that is what made it fun. Everyone acted like they have known you for years.
For dinner, we had samon, which I normally don't like, but this time it was good. Also, we had twice baked potatos, minus the cheese, and a fancy salad.
Dessert? Pecan Pie.
They sure know how to eat down here in the south!
Forget the bikini. If I keep eating, I will have to go to Murtle Beach in a one peice.

South Carolina, Day 1

2010-05-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

Just got in last night. Phew! It was a long haul. It wouldn't have been so bad, but we had a layover in Chicago for 4 hours. I think that I walked the terminal a couple hundred times.
When we did get picked up, it was sooooo humid. It felt like when you take a shower, and get out and its all steamy and warm. Almost muggy.
Because there is no airport in SC, (I know, right!) we flew into North Carolina. We stopped there for dinner at an itallian place, and it was fancy!!! Also, it was the only resturant open. I guess the South is very set on having Sundays off. It is great until you want to go somewhere. Our waiter sounded like he was straight from Forest Gump. I couldn't stop smilling. We had some calamari for apitizers, and stuffed crab ravioli for dinner. (By the way, Dad, calamari are NOT supposed to be chewy. When they are fresh, they are just a little more dense than shrimp.)
When we left, we were driving home, and the trees were so green! Not only were they those huge, green, and leafy, but they had vines covering the trunk, so you couln't even see any brown!!

This morning, I went jogging, and I was about a mile in, and soooooo sticky. By the time I got back, I was soaked. A shower didn't help much, but now, 4 hours latter, I finally feel dry.

We are off to the civil war museum, or as they say in the south, the war for southern independence!

Why can't all preformers still be this good live?

2010-05-05T18:56:00.000-07:00

Drama mama

2010-04-19T20:08:00.000-07:00

Is it possible that I, an english major, can over emphasize things, reading too much into it, and comming with obscure possibilities?
Mabye.
I blame lifetime. Yes, the television network.I think if they didn't have ALL their shows being about bad husbands, boyfriends, males in general,- we as women viewers might have a chance at happieness instead of looking for the bad in relationships all the time.
So, instead of being like, "Oh my gosh, he told me to shut up, I am emotionally abused!"
It could be like,"Ok, he has a headache, and I am probobly not helping by sitting here arguing."
Who knows what is real and what is made up in our heads.
A good quote I read in the book "Eat, Pray, Love" said this. The main character just got out of a serious relationship with one person, left the U.S. to find herself, and ran into this random guy she really liked. She asked the medicane man she was staying with if this guy was from heaven to rescue her, or from hell to torment her. He answered, "there is no heaven or hell. Just a different path to get there." meaning, life is going to be all how you take it. If you think you are emotionally abused, yeah, you are going to go through life thinking that you have a terrible life, and be miserable. But if you take it, one day at a time, one instance at a time, and keep in mind all the good stuff, you will find it worth living.

Owwie!!!

2010-04-19T20:06:00.000-07:00

Ok, Today everywhere in my body was in pain. I was sore from running the last two days, right before I went to work, the fabric from my bra that held the underwire broke, sending a swift, painful poke to the side boob, and to top it off, cramps. Thank you very much, universe. My day was a compleate disaster.

Phew! So much for Sunday being the day of relaxation!

2010-04-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

IT was my weekend to work, but it sure didn't feel that way. I probobly spent the same time working as I did if I were just laying on the couch! At least I earned some dough!
I have been really inspired to run lately. Saturday night, I did a hard core workout, (thank you, Jillian Michells!) and then I decided to go running. I was just getting ready to leave when matt came out and asked if he could join. Sure, why not.
It was soooo funny!
When we got to this big hill at the end, and I mean big, especially when you have been running for 3 miles already, Matt did what boys do. He was hooting and holler'n at him self. "phew! yeah! Come on!'
Riiiiiiiight.
I think he was trying to get himself pumped up. It was really funny.
I was nervous when we got home because I had to get up at 5 the next morning for work. I did't want to be sore, but I was almost sure I would be because of the double workout. But lo and behold, the next morning comes, and i am a little sore, but thats it! Yeah! I thought, I m getting stronger!
So, like an idiot, I ran TWO times yesterday. One to a park the oppisate direction, and one with matt. I AM SO SORE I FEEL LIKE AN OLD WOMAN!!!!
Also, yesterday I gave my little squirt a hair cut and it looks fantastic! Ha! You petco people! I can do just as good of a job, and it doesn't take me 5 hours OR $45!It was actually kind of fun, because you see all that hair come off, its like you're discovering a new little dog under there!I was supposed to give matt one, but didn't feel like it. I gave squirt one because he isn't so picky, and Matts hair cut will only cost $15. :)

Math should be burned at every ending class

2010-04-14T21:24:00.000-07:00

Stupid math class. I hate you. I hate you professor, for never teaching, I hate you group for thinking you are too good or above it all to do any problems, and I hate you class, because I really don't need you anymore! Nope! I DON'T NEED YOU!!! I don't want to be a freak'n teacher, let alone a MATH teacher, so go back to the days of aristotle and homer, who were poets anyway.

Heather and I at Alice in Wonderland movie

2010-04-10T22:19:00.000-07:00

It was so good! It was great to have someone to dress up with. Made it that much better.

Not quite ready to be a mom yet. . . much too fond of sleep

2010-03-13T20:09:00.000-08:00

Last night, I couldn't get to sleep till 3 am! Atleast! That was the last time I looked at the clock, so it was probobly latter, who knows. The thing was, I was REALLY tiered last night. You would have thought I would have no trouble, right?
I went to bed around 9ish, and I just laid there. I kept thinking of everything that was changing, and then that took me back to bad places of the past, and I started thinking of everything. I turned the tv on, just so I could let my mind wander, and lo and behold, the cooking channel was on. Half an hour went by, and not only was I not tiered, but now I was hungry!
So I got up, walked around the house, ate a few oreos, and went back to bed. This time, I turned off the tv, and went with the harry potter approach. I have read harry potter, like, 500 times, so its not like I have no idea what is going to happen, but still, I stayed up for an hour plus reading!
Two down, and still restless!
Matt came up then, and by that time, I had popped 2 sleeping pills, but I think the manufacturer had them mixed up with caffeen pills, because now I had twitchy feet!
You know, when they suddenly itch for no apperent reason?
It was horrible.
It was about 2, and I left our bed to go to the spare bed, did a couple sets of jumpping jacks, and went to bed.
It took forever, but I finally made it!
Just before I drifted off, I noticed that it was 3 o clock, and thought, "wow, most moms would be up right now, trying to calm some baby."
Then and there, I decided that I need my sleep for a few more years.
Ahhhh, precious sleep.

So many things are changing

2010-03-12T20:08:00.001-08:00

About a month ago, I was bored. I decided to ease my bordem itch, I would redo my spare bedroom. Well, that set off a chain of crazy, not so bored events. They are as follows:
I went in and talked to my counceler at Metro. Turns out, I will be done in 2 years instead of 3. Yay!
My bosses at Target, the two that I love the most, are leaving! One is my direct boss, and she will be going to just a different department, but the other one is leaving the store all together. How dare he!
Again, my car!!!!! I hate not having a car, relying on people to give me rides. Plus, sitting next to weird people on the bus. YUCK
And the finally . . .
Matt was supposed to hear back from this company in Denver by today, IF they were interested. Well, they haven't called. So he went and interviewed for another company. They were so impressed, they are flying him out to Cicago for a second interview, but here is the catch: We would have to move to either Louisiana or Texas. Ahhh! It was hard enough moving from my little CO town to a big city, but leaving the state all together?
Humph.
I am excited to see parts of this country, but it will be hard for me to leave everything I know. I cried for a couple of minnutes after he told me, and I think it was because it was such a shock, and such a big change, that I didn't know what to do.
We have to go where the jobs are, but man, this is comming up quick!
God help us find a place to call home, surrounded with loving family and friends, wherever that might be.

Fighting for clarity

2010-03-03T21:41:00.000-08:00

So, matt and I have been fighting alot lately, especially at night. I keep thinking bad thoughts, and he keeps wondering why I am so sad all the time and not willing to let it go. In my mind, it is kind of like a "well, duh!" But it is in his mind too.
A couple of things to keep in mind:
Observe the positive stuff. Not everything can be celebrated full out.
IF you think bad, then it will be bad. That includes everything.
Be sure to live life.
Don't pay attention to what a person says when they are angry. They might have thought it for a second, (as did I,) but they don't really mean it.
Accept "I love you".

Sunday Mornings

2010-02-28T06:20:00.000-08:00

I wake up
7am.
Natures alarm clock.
I feel so fresh and alive.
Like waking up is
being born
all over again.
The sun is struggling against the horizon,
Making its way up into the new day.
It is streaming through clouds,
sending out its rays where ever it gets the chance.
It almost looks like the moon.
Branches reach up to the sky,
as if they
were praising God
for this wonderful day.
Their branches criss cross,
like hands held together in prayer.

To moms who inspire their daughters - its a great song

2010-02-12T17:48:00.000-08:00

A good day

2010-02-12T17:12:00.001-08:00

today was one of the best days I have had in a long time. At work, they had a vollunteer oppertunity to go help a childrens home celebrate valentines day. Kids there have been beaten, assulted, neclected and abused. Needless to say, they haven't really celebrated much in their lives.
But today was different.
Today, me and 3 co-workers requisitioned $50 worth of candy and went to meet other target employees who wanted to help throw the kids a valentines day party. We set up little game booths that they could play, and every kid got a prize; 2 peices of candy and a valentines day pencil. The booths consisted of face painting, (I got mine done too!) sack toss, ring toss, basket ball, and the best booth, hehem, was we gave them a little rubber ball and they tossed it into a mail box.
It was so much fun cheering and encoraging the kids on! Some kids didn't really know what to do with positive emotions, so they just kept their frown on, but I knew they appreciated it. Like Betty White said on The Golden Girls, "A frown is just a smile turned upside down!"
Some of the kids were really upset when their turn was up, but we just said, "You did so good, though! Now let this kid try!" And they took their candy and either watched the next kid, or walked away to find other stations to play.
The face painting was the funniest. All the boys had huge snakes painted on, like they were really tough stuff. What did I get?
A butterfly!!!

I thought it was so pretty, I wore it to work the rest of the day.
The best part was this girl, about 9 or 10 walked up to our booth and I commented on her lovely face painting. She smiled and said thankyou. She kept comming back around, and when her class was leaving, she came up to me, thanked me, and just kind of stood there.
I held open my arms and she came and gave me a hug! I told her how nice it was meeting her, and that I hoped that she had a happy Valentines day.
It was so nice to know that one little compliment had made her day. She sure made mine.
Driving home, I couldn't help but think about how this was really close to not happening. I was the only one signed up, and I had to go, person to person, and ask them to come with me. Alot of people didn't want to go, and I can see why.
Yes, its scary volunteering where you don't know anyone.
Yes, its scary to have the abused kids right up in front of you, so that you can't ignore it.
Yes, it is terrifying, but these kids have only known hardship and sadness; they need to see the good in the world. It never hurt anyone to be a little uncomfortable.

V. Day or D. Day?

2010-02-06T22:08:00.000-08:00

So I wonder if I will be getting anything for Valentines day? I know I shouldn't get my hopes up because he doesn't have alot of money, but at the same time, we have been through a lot this year. I don't know what to hope for! I haven't gotten him anything, but I still kind of want some flowers or something. :)We'll see.

Fairy Tales

2010-02-06T21:56:00.000-08:00

So, I just got done reading a book called "The twelve dancing princesses". It was fantastic. Not only did I enjoy reading a famliar fairy tale, (it was nice that the author made it 300 pages to make me feel like a grown up,) but it renewed my hope for goodness in the world.
Perhaps this is taking it a bit far, but as I read it, all the characters had such raw emotion, that it just seemed so real. What the characters were feeling, I could sympathize with them and understand WHY they felt that way. Their troubles were real troubles, their worries, real things to worry about. And the way that the author described their physical attributes, amazing. It made me think they were at one time real people.
If anyone knows the story, you know that the princesses are trapped by an enchantment to go undergound every night, and dance for an evil prince. That is why their dancing slippers get worn through, and that is what provokes the main mystery. The author does a great job portraying how tiered they look. I mean, they look retched. He doesn't pay them the honor of being beautiful AND droopy eyed. Nope. They are exausted girls who have the burden of a secret.
That is what I loved. The realness in a fairytale.

God bless mom. I wouldn't be here otherwise

2010-02-04T06:38:00.000-08:00

Mothers are a blessing from God. Truely. I spent 77 minutes talkiing to her last night, and I went from feeling really bad and sorry for myself to accepting things and willing to move on with life.
One conversation was particularly moving.
I told her "I am a failure in life! I have done nothing with it so far!!"
She retorted, "now hang on a sec, if your a failure, that means I am a failure! What are you trying to say here?!"
"Huh? What are you TALKING about? Your not a failure!"
"Everyone knows it is the mothers falt."
"What?! No . . "
"Yes sir! It all comes back to how you are raised. So you are goign to tell me that I was a failure as a mother and failed in raising you?"
"Of coarse not."
She continued on her rant abot how i thought she was a bad mother, (joking), and finally I said, "Mom, you know what? I am a graduate from college, have a job, got married before the national average, so I think by all means I am succeeding"
"See, there you go."
"But I don't have the job I want, I am going to school for who knows what, and my marriage is in shambles!"
"No its not."
"I mean, what am I going to do with my life? I have no idea what i am good for!"
"Well, I am not good for anything, am I wasting my life?"
"No" Then I thoought abot it. "You are a great mom. The best. That is what you were supposed to do."
"Awww. Well see, that is what you will be great at being a mom."
"No I wont! I will have horrible, unrully kids!"
"Nah. You'll whip them into shape."
Then I went on to ask what if they have deformaties, down syndrome, or anything else. I was freaking out, to say the least.
"You can never help that. There is nothing you can do to prevent it."
Ture.
Mom always speaks the truth.
Like when I said everything about my marriage was unsure. She said, no, he truely loves me me, he wont ever hurt me again, and we will have a happy marraige if I can learn to get past it.
I know she is rigt. She is the reason I stayed in this marriage. She is the reason I keep going. She is what gives me the strength to live day after day, to keep going.
I asked her who cheers her up.
"I don't know." She said. "I guess I cheer myself up."

Hurt

2010-02-01T17:40:00.001-08:00

The hardest part about any of this is letting go. Letting him go to class, letting him go to study group, letting him go anywhere is so hard for me. It is proving to be harder than I thought just to have the simple trust again.
Before, if he had to work late on a project, no problem. If it had all girls in it, I didn't care. Heck, over the summer, a girl even put "I love you!" on his helmet, and I didn't bat an eyelash.
Now, every phone call, every unknown number, every time he isn't home when he says he will be, I get a cold, clammy feeling, like the very first time that he told me he cheated on me.
I still can't believe that he was sticking up for his relationship with her more than for ours.
"I promised her we could be friends!"
"Well you promised to be faithful to me first!"
That keeps ringing over and over in my mind. I always see him in the spare bedroom telling me that.
I wonder to this day if I had not wrote that e-mail to her, would this still be going on? Would I have a husband? And do I have a husband who will fight for our relationship now?I can never be sure. I wish i were just happily married, about ready to start a family, and at peace. What I wouldn't give to know what was in matts head and heart. I wish that I could see that he was truthful, and I wish with all my being that I could find a way to make that sluts life miserable, to really hurt her how she hurt me.
I know I never will.
I hope to God that someday I will be able to not dwell, to feel loved, and to be at peace.

Attention all friends, family, and alinaces: I need a ride

2010-01-31T20:27:00.000-08:00

After having my little green Taurus for 7 years, it died. I knew it was bad, (ok, really bad,) but to hear all that was wrong with it was so hurtful!
My poor little car!!! Pooh. I was just starting to take care of it, (i.e. clean out the inside so it didn't look like a garbage can.) and it goes kaput.
Poor little car. Thank you for being so good to me!!
As of now, I am currently without a viechle. I know I should be worried, but Im not. I have a bus pass, which I might add, I am getting pretty proficent with, plus, Matt and I have exactly the right schedual so it works out ok.
I really wish that my little car would have made it a couple of more months, but it wasn't ment to be, and matt and I are too poor to buy a new one, so hopefully this will make due!

2010-01-31T20:15:00.000-08:00

Ok, for all of you writers out there who have a bachalors, masters, or just love to write, this is for you. An article was published in Self magazine this month, (it has Jessica Alba on the cover,) and it talks about this girl who has a masters in creative writing and is working at a grocery store.
It is fantastic!
I have been complaining for months that I have a bachalors and am stuck at a dead end retail job. This article made me feel better.
It is about this girl who, although works at a grocery store, has more time to write. In the article, it describes how she used to have a "respected" job as a teacher, but it was way stressful, and it didn't leave her any time for her own writing because she was so busy teaching other people to write. The job was stress filled nothingness for her, and she didn't even get to do what she wanted to to: write.
So now, working at a grocery store, she has more than 30 hours a week just to write, and not worry about anything. Of coarse, the age-old question comes up "you got a masters degree to stock cat food?"
Well, of coarse not, but why snuff at the hand that feeds you?

As much as I complain that I don't like my job, it is a job, and there are worse ones out there. It gives me and my husband great health insurance, and it gives me leave if ever a crisis comes up. It puts food on the table, lets me get my family some extra goodies, and helps me meet people. Plus, as the author said, I get more time to write!
Hummm . . . I was kind of inspired today at church, as well as this article. I think I will try to combine the two and make a brand new blog.
why not read the bible, and for every time I read, I have to find a passage I want to write about and how it relates into everyday life.
That sounds good!

By the way, to any of my fellow workers, I hate my job. I think if I were a non manager, it would be ok, but then I would be complaning that I don't even have a manger spot and working for mim wage with a bac. degree. I am never happy. I HATE MY JOB!!!

Ok, I feel better now.

I wish I were a michanic, but I don't like to be dirty . . . or dirrty

2010-01-29T17:46:00.000-08:00

my poor poor car is broken. We took it to one machanic, he said it would be boo koo bucks to fix it, and we took it some where else for a second oppinion, and aalthough it would have been $500 less, it would still be boo koo bucks ($1,000) to fix it. So Matt and I are pulling a Matt and Heather. :P
We are sharring one car.
Since I have my student ID, I get to ride the bus for free, and it isn't too bad, plus, it is free so I do that sometimes. But when Matt can, he gives me rides.
My poor car though! I ve had it since 17! Poor baby.
Kinda stinks relying on having another person drive you around, but it works, so I can't complain.

Afterthought: Why do all mechanics have pictures of naked girls hanging up all over? Seriously, is working on cars all day not macho enough for you?! You have to have chick pics up so people will view you as a sexually endowed member of our soceity?
Whatever.

2010-01-27T20:00:00.000-08:00

Ok, Im a boss now. . . I just wish I was getting paid

2010-01-27T19:24:00.001-08:00

Today was our big bounce back tour. Our district manager came in, and judged how we looked. Since Kelly wasn't there for the tour, there wasn't anyone to represent softlines; except me.
I walked with Rick!
It was totally crazy. I didn't really know what to say, but I guess I did ok, b/c he told David that I was a "win" for the store.
Yay me!
My day was going fantastic, until Matt called and told me that he was going to be studying with his group (HOE!) tomarrow night at 5pm, and didn't know when he was going to be home.
Bad desia vue!
I am really nervous about him going. I really really don't want him to go. I don't know what is going to happen, but it won't be good. I just want to escape from this all. I hate feeling this nervous.

When you are pushed against a wall, you see how hard you can come back.

2010-01-27T19:15:00.001-08:00

This is what my manager told me after we met today. I told her I was feeling lost. I didn't know what I wanted in my personal life, (should I stay? Should I go? Am I wasting my time here? Is he going to leave me?) and I didn't know what I wanted to do for a profession. Teach, you get summers, holidays, and weekends off. However, you have to jump through alot of bridges, and anoying kids (and equally anoying parents). I was feeling alot of draw back in my current job situation. I felt like I was going backwards with my progress. Last September, and all though the holidays, I was a kick ass boss. I coached, I confronted, I didn't have any problem with it. Lately, I have been like, "I don't care if you don't work. I just dont feel like getting into it."
I told Kelly this, and she said,
You know, when Treva was gone, you stepped up. You created an alyance with Sue to get the job done, you delegated tasks, and did coachings with confidence.
In September, when Matt left and came back, you had to make a dissision.
It is no coincedence that these two mirror each other. When you are pushed against the wall, and have to make a dissision, you feel much more confident because you know that YOU are the one who made it. You thrive when it seems like the perfect time to fail.

Yay me!

Looking back on it, it was a really strong growing part in my life. I no longer stay awake at night caring what someone thinks of me, (although I do still lie awake not knowing for certin that I am with the lomyl)and I feel like I have taken my first step toward being an adult.

Smelly feet

2010-01-16T09:29:00.000-08:00

Last night my mother in law came into town to stay with us while her son was in a wresting match. We went and picked her up around 9pm, and by 1030, I was ready to hit the sack. I laid there in bed for a while till Matt came up, and then I realized I forgot to take one of my pills.
"I'll be right back!" I said.
I opened the door, and the most pungent, disgusting, ranky smell hit me.
I started freaking out.
"Matt! One of the dogs pooped!!! Get out here!"
"Nah, it is just Sutton's feet." He said, ready to konk out in 2.5 seconds.
"Matt, get OUT here!!!!" I was getting angrier by the second. Searching for the poop, I went all around the spare room. Not finding it there, I went downstairs where the odor became more pungent.
Oh my gosh, seriously? This was someones feet?! I laid there for a while, the smell comming into my nostorals for hours afterwards, not believing that a person could smell that bad.
Whatever the case, two things were decided this morning.
1. I was overly extatic that my house didn't smell.
2. I was going to bleach the sheets that she had slept on. Yuck!

My favorite movie EVER!

2010-01-09T08:31:00.001-08:00

I love this movie! So many different quotable quotes! Notice in the picture how it says "Princess Bride" both right side up, and up side down? I love the reflection in this pic because it goes to show that we all have a princess or pirate in us.

Tea

2010-01-09T08:22:00.000-08:00

Now, you may think this is a weird blog post, but just hear me out. When you are sick, and can't swallow anything, what feels good on a sore thorat? Tea. When you are sad, and want to cry over a steaming mug of something? Tea. What do you drink when you want to feel fancy? Tea!! (Pinkies up, please!)
I do believe that lattes and carmel machiattos (although very good) have taken away the enjoyment of tea.
Protest world!
Quit drinking a $4 cup of carmely goodness, and settle for the simplicity of tea. There are so many different types, you can't get bored!
Added bounus: Way healthy for you. :P

Everyday life and its worries.

2010-01-08T06:36:00.001-08:00

EEk! I start school in less than 2 weeks. I am so nervous!!! I went to get my ID, and it was really hard/frustrating because there are three schools in 1 here! If you get in the wrong line, or go into the wrong section of the bookstore, you are doomed!!
Further more, I have to ride the bus, 1, because my car absolutly will not make it, and 2, parking downtown is a disaster. Ok, not to be judmental, but has anyone seen the people who ride the bus?!? Most do not look friendly. I keep trying to tell myself once school is in, it will be mostly students, but will it?Who knows. I don't even know if teaching is what I want to do!!! I really like the schedual, thats all. Summers off, yes please. Weekends too, that would be great. Plus, half the time, you would be doing arts and crafts for some holiday, so I really wouldn't be teaching at all. Valentines day, for example, a week before, I would have them work on those shoeboxes to turn them into card holders. Humm. . . That I could definetly do. But the bad, anoying kids? I will want to rip my hair out. The parent teacher confrence? Shudder.
Seriously, I could go to school right now, and in the same time it would take me to become a teacher, I could get my nursing license. They only work 3 days a week!!! That would be fabulous. But . . . ewww! . . . sick people?! I would give them tea and rest and send them on their way.
Matt starts school in a week too, and that weighs heavy on my mind, because he still has f"***ng senior design with that slut and horror. Whatever, promise me all you want, but the damage is done. Seriously, you wonder why I am ultimatly cranky when you are an hour late? Hummm . . . lets take a moment and reflect on the past year. .
And no you cannot take a job that will have you gone for 6 months at a time!!! Are you kidding me?!?!
Thank you Matt, I can no longer read romances. My dear H., I couldn't even finnish "Mr. Darcy, Vampire". I will bring it back with me next time I come up.
I got season 3 of the Tudors. I really don't like it very much. Too bloody, and too much deception.
The question "WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!?!" Is pleauging me to no end. My whole being is in question right now. Am I wasting time, staying with someone who MIGHT break their word? What will I do for a carreer? Am I wasting time/money on a majior that I am unsure of? WHY AM I STILL AT THE SAME JOB I WAS AT FOR THE LAST 8 YEARS!? I really want a tattoo, but will I in a couple of years, when I get a "real" job? Will I ever get a real job? I want to have kids by the time Im 30, so if I get out of school in 3 years, that will make me, . . 27!!! Good God, might as well be a profesional student. 27 . . . That seems so old. Wow. H, do you feel that old? I know you atleast feel grown up, miss got a house and dog planning to have a baby soon. :) Geeze, you must even have morgage payments. Man. I am NOT ready for those yet!
OOOh, and my car!!! It doesn't work!!! Took it in, payed 400 dollars for it, but is it fixed. Ha. Yeah right. I don't think cars work past a certin age, that or I got compleatly ripped off, and they didn't do jack s**t to my car. Poor car! It was good while it lasted. Please last one more year!!! I am promised a 4-runner for Christmas!(Yeah, I know. We will see.)
Dose anyone else have these stresses? I feel like I am going around and round in circles, and by the time everything stopps, I will be 30 + years old. That is 10 away from 40 people, and we all know how fast 10 years flies by!

cross country skiing

2010-01-03T08:19:00.001-08:00

Matt and I went for the second time this winter cross country skiing. I know it doesn't sound like alot, but it is two more times than we went last winter, and 2 more things more we did outside than last summmer, so I am psyched!
I am glad we went, but yesterday, when I woke up, skiing was the last thing I wanted to do. Actually, the last thing was spending time with hubby, but when it is only you two skiing,it comes down to being the same thing.
I don't know why, mabye it is the new year thing and the pressure of time, but I have been feeling sooo depressed lately. From the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to bed, I just have a feeling of abandonment. Even though he is right there, I keep living in September. I can't shake it off, no matter how hard I try. I know matt gets mad because he has been trying these last months to make it up to me, and hasn't done anything since september, but I still feel like it just happened, and the weight of it is crushing down on me. Sometimes, it is like I can't breathe.
Last night my family came and stayed with us. They were on their way back from Iowa, and were off first thing this morning to go back home. Even though they were here for such a little period of time, my heart broke as they left. I want to go back to being a kid again! I want to go back before everything, and tell myself what I know now. Would it make a difference?

Dream

2009-12-28T07:30:00.001-08:00

Had the weirdest dream last night. I drempt that someone I knew had twins, and didnt want both of them, so she gave one of them to me. It was so odd, but in the dream, I really wanted a baby, so I took it and we both went our seperate ways.
Next, my dream flashes to me carrying it around target, looking for a bottle and formula. I have no idea which nipple goes to which bottle, and I was starting to get freaked out, and the baby was looking at me like, "um, Im getting hungry here,". Finally, I just grabbed any nipple and bottle, shoved it together, (though it totally didn't go together,) and gave the baby the bottle. The delema didn't end there, though. In the bottle already was some chcolate milk. I didn't think I had time to clean it out, so I mixed the formula in it, and gave it to the baby. The whole time, the dream Megan was like, "I am a horrible mother! you dont give a baby chcolate milk!"
But dream baby didn't seem to mind, so I went with it.
Then Matt started snoring really loudly.

Whinning about work: proceed with discression

2009-12-22T12:35:00.001-08:00

I need a new job.
I figure every one has bad days at work - that is unavoidable. But, there also comes a time in a person's career/current job, when you dread going in EVERY DAY. That, my friends, is when it is time to look for a new job. I have been going onto websites of libraries, National forset, division of wildlife, and even hospitals. (hey, I could answer phones.)
No one is hiering though!!! I know I should count my blessings that I actually have a job, but sheesh, I feel like it just drains me of all joy and happyness!
Maaaaaaaaaabye that was a bit over exaggerated.
I am just ready for a new job!!! New challenges!!!
Some of the jobs that were open pay almost half of what I am making now, and I am not even making that much!
I enjoy stuff too much to sacrifice. :)

Bro-eater

2009-12-22T12:10:00.000-08:00

I know 16 year olds can eat, espicially boys, but dang! Nothing ever prepared me for when my brother in law, a heavyweight 16 year old, showed up at our house to spend Christmas vacation.
In one sitting, he ate 1 doughnut, 3 sausage biscuts from McDonnalds, and a lb. of Spagetti.
Worse than that?
After he eats all that, he sitts infront of the tv for hours, playing countless video games.
I cannot be too harsh on this aspect, because my husband plays them right along with him. So much so, I am starting to feel single. Up till 2 am, sleep, back up at 9 and right back in front of the tv! The only time they stop is to A. eat, or B. go to the bathroom.
The thing that set me over the edge was when he ate a plate of goodies that I had made for some neighbors for Christmas.
What, did he think that they were sitting there on a plate for him?? It was serane rapped for goodness sake!
Little pork-o.

Reflection

2009-09-12T19:07:00.000-07:00

Wow, let me just say that.
I cannot believe it has only been a week since my life has been turned upside down.
It feels like I have lived 6 months in a week. Things are still shaky, new "surprises" getting thrown at me every 12 hours or so, but remarkably,
I still have faith.
It is impossible to explain how I am feeleing.
When we are not fighting and we are living like we did before everything happened, it feels so wonderful. I don't think I have ever been in love so much as I am then. Everything we do I am so grateful for, and nothing is as serious as it would be. The world feels as light as a feather.
But then he revieals a new "twist" in the plot, let us call it. It breaks my heart. I am confused, hurt, and angrier than I have ever been. I want to rip everything apart. Every picture that we have hanging, anything that we have ever bought together, I just want to throw it all away.
Then I feel so stupid, because who would put up with this much? Lying, cheating, STILL befriending?
I know if anyone could know exactlly what went on, they would be like, "Hey, what the heck are you still doing there?"

Hope.

I don't even know why.
I keep thinking, "ok, this is the last straw, the next thing, and Im gone!" but it never works that way.
Really, I think HE would have to get rid of ME.
Isn't that sad.
After all that was done, all the tears, I remain here. Intending to stay, but it is so hard.
I am just doing it, day by day. Hour by hour. fight by fight. I have to win, don't I? After fighting so hard.
It feels like the 100 year war.
I am just sooooo tiered. BUT I will still fight.
"Love Conqures all," as the Corithians say.

2009-09-09T09:17:00.000-07:00

feelings

2009-09-08T21:13:00.000-07:00

I feel stupid, so God damed stupid.
Someone breaks your heart,
your trust,
you are devistated.
Broken.
A part of you, a part that still hopes,
accepts apoligies and promises of a change,
but then, not even 24 hours latter,
the trust is broken again.
How could you? you ask
he was hoping too.
That I wouldn't find out,
that I wouldn't get mad again,
All bonds
of trust
Broken.

Sigh

2009-09-03T13:55:00.000-07:00

Just as my hopes and dreams were comming to a realization, down they go.
I was going to go meet with the director for ESL programs, and he wasn't there!!!
I feel like such a dweeb. I really wanted to go, got all pretty, and nothing came of it. I have e mailed him, and want a firm, concreate apointment.
Secondly, someone has been "gmail" (I have no idea what that is, I think its like IM) some girl. He didn't minimize it the first time I saw it, but when I came down latter, he quick flipped to another screen.
Not to sound paranoid, she is in his class and everything, but geeze!!!
Today is rough!

Trip

2009-08-25T22:44:00.001-07:00

Make a Smilebox slideshow

Pictures from a week ago in Washington.

2009-08-25T22:08:00.001-07:00

Make a Smilebox photobook

The easiest way to a mans heart

2009-08-24T22:46:00.000-07:00

I was working my night shift tonight, and on my lunch, I bought groceries.
When I got home, I was putting them away when I noticed that a whole jar of salsa was gone, and the wrapper of a super-size bag of twizlers was on the sofa.
Disbelievingly, I asked Matt, and shockingly, this is what it was:
That is what he had for dinner.
When I asked him why, he said, "Well, nothing was cooked!"
ok, I think that he would starve (or survive on icky salsa,) if I didn't cook.
Eeeeww . . . . I keep thinking about it. . . . a WHOLE can of salsa . . . GONE!!!

whoo-hoo!

2009-08-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to share with everyone, I rock at spanish.
Last night at work, we were all back having a meeting, and over the walkie, someone asks if there is anyone who speaks spanish. My boss turns to me, and says, "go over to electronics and help them out." and tells the person on the walkie that I am on my way over. I was protesting like crazy that I don't know spanish very well, and I haven't taken it for 3 years, but it didn't seem to matter.
As I walked over, I took my time, secretly hoping that whoever it was would get tiered of waiting and leave.
Oh not so.
I got there, and the two guys were like, "hablas espanol?"
"Un poco," I replied.
He started saying what he needed, and here is the crazy part: I understood him.
I caught the words "cell phone" and "free minnutes", so I put it together that he wanted a phone with somekind of free minutes.
It was sooo cool that I understood him, and he seemed appreciative that someone in the store understood him also.
BUT IT DOESNT END HERE!!!
Today in jewelry, I went over to help a guest, who, lo and behold, didn't speak english.
BUT AGAIN, I UNDERSTOOD!
She asked me what size the ring was, asked if she could look at a pair of earings, ect. I was doing really well until her husband asked me the same "hablas espanol" question.
Same answer.
Well, I must have been doing pretty good, because she started rattiling off, asking (I think,) what kind of metel the jewelry was made out of. I have no idea how to say "it is silver with a top layer of gold plating," so I just shrugged and told her I was sorry.
Do you think this is Gods way of telling me that my carreer is based in spanish? It felt so good to know that I could help out, and speak a language no one else in the store knows, to open up a new door of service to people. *sigh* I felt very blessed and inspired that I had those people for guests.

Live, from Washington

2009-08-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

I had a good week so far!!!
Yesterday we went out on the lake to khiak, (I think that is how you spell it,) and today we took the ferry over to the San Juan islands. It was so beautiful and peaceful there, I wanted to stay there forever. We saw a lighthouse that was on the edge of a rocky bank, and it was so cool that I took atleast 10 pictures. :) I will have to upload them latter.
As we were comming back on the ferry, I saw the most beautiful sunset. It was setting behind the mountians and was reflecting an orange/red hue, creating the sensation that the whole mountain was on fire and casting it brilliantly into the ocean. A picture could never capture it, so I won't even try with this one.
We went to lots of little shops, and I got some new cookie cutters!!! They are in the shape of a lighthouse, teapot, and a dolphin! So cool. I can't wait to make cookies out of them!

The "thank you for doing our plumming" pie

2009-07-30T12:09:00.001-07:00

When shit happens, friends and family are there. . . but why did I have to be on both ends?

2009-07-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

If you are eating, stop. Or if you are about to eat, it would be a wise decision to postpone this post.
Last night I learned something about our house:
ALL the water lines are connected.
I was upstairs making dinner, when Matt came up and told me:
"You won't believe what happened."
"What?" I say
"When I flushed the toilet, it came back up through the shower drain!"
The reason he knows, is because he was taking a dump - if it were the other, I doubt he would have noticed.
So imagine THAT comming up the drain.
Yeah, that is what I had to deal with.
We then proceeded to argue about who should clean it up, and he then anounced he had to go to work.
I got mad. That is all I will say.(Hello! He left me a plie of poop to clean up!)

I called my parents, and they said to call an old plumer friend, who, luckly lives up the street. I told them (red faced) what happened, and he said that he would be right over.
It was kind of like going to the gynocologist: I had to remind myself that he had seen these things before, and it was no big deal that he was wallowing around in our waste. . . EWWWW! Even NOW it disgusts me!!! (I was still really emarassed though.)
He had a huge snake that he used to fix it, and then he gave me a break, and only charged me $100.
I said thank you the whole time he was backing out of the driveway.
I was just starting to clean up, when I heard the doorbell ring.
It was his wife, comming to return the check. I argued with her for a long time, saying that was his job, and he most definetly should get paid for wallowing around in unpleasentness.
She told me that is what friends are for, it only took him 15 min., and that she remembers what it was like starting out, and knew we could use the money for something else.
Makes me a little wet in the eye to know there are still people like that. :)
I still plan on getting them a gift card, and baking them a peach pie, just as a thank you.
(I hope the husband wasn't mad that she made him give it back!!!)

The funniest sheldon ever . . . about pugs!!!

2009-07-24T08:31:00.000-07:00

Inspiring Song

2009-07-24T08:26:00.001-07:00

Dental Drama

2009-07-23T17:09:00.000-07:00

Ok, if you want to see me cry, take me to the dentist.
My poor mom knows this more than anybody, I think. :)
I had my first cavity in a couple years filled today. I was dreading it, but being a mature, worldly girl that I am, I figure that I had grown out of my fear.
Ohhhh, so not so.
I was sitting back in the chair, and BAM! He didn't even warn me! One minnute he was numbing my gum with that vasiline stuff, the next I feel a prick and open my eyes to a saringe in my mouth!!! AHHH!!!!
After he was done, I told him he was tricky. That seemed to make his day.
Bastard.
Then, he LEFT me to go talk to some old lady who wanted every dark spot on her x-ray explained.
So there I was ,FREAKING out, slowly loosing feeling in my gum, and I don't know what hit me, but I started to cry.
Luckly, no one was around me.
However, when he came back in and started drilling, I started right back up again. After about a minnute, he stopped the drill, and told me I had to be still. That I was "shaking like a leaf," he called it. Well, it was scarry!!!
Then he had this vibrating thing he used before he filled the cavity, and then WHILE he was filling it, my other tooth had this "tooth trap" around it,and it was pinching my gum!!! Poor teeth. I bet it will hurt once the numbness wears off.
In the mean time, I can't eat till I can feel everything again, and I am hungry!!!

Puppy fun

2009-07-19T17:51:00.001-07:00

Doesn't he look cute?!?! My little bummble bee!

Kody was a ladybug. . .

Matt thought it would be funny if he was a BLIND ladybug. . . I don't think Kody liked it!

Ok, I know it is upside down, but I was taking it with my left hand! It kept getting in the way!!!

Squirt is always miserable when I first put a costume on him. It is so funny to see him standing there and glaring. :P

A New grip

2009-07-18T07:32:00.000-07:00

Since I moved here, I haven't really found a church that I connect with, so I have been listining to alot of christian music. I suggest "East to west" by casting crowns, and "Motions" by Matthew West. Both very good! I feel closer to God when I listen to these songs, and if I am having a bad day, they just seem to calm me down. I found this picture and I thought it was so cute and funny!!! Enjoy this picture, and if you go and check out those songs, let me know what you think!

Just a little Harry . . . Potter that is.

2009-07-16T00:02:00.000-07:00

I just got done seeing Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Although it left out a few parts, I felt like it did a pretty good job on getting the key points in there.
A few I would like to have seen are:
The combat between good guys vs. bad guys . . . that is half the fun!
The part where "Flem", um, you know, Flur deCore (or whatever her last name is,) is staying at the Weasleys.
More memories!!! (Toms mother, Tom applying for the position of Dark Arts teacher . . . that would explain why no one has ever held a job for more than a year.)

One thing I liked that wasn't in the book was when Harry and Ginny were chasing after Belatrax in the hay feild. I liked it. Gave the movie tempo.

I just gotta say, . . I LOVE the people who play Lavander and Luna. Must have something to do with the "L's" They are hillarious.

Renissance scrapbook

2009-07-13T10:25:00.001-07:00

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Huzzah for the rennesance!

2009-07-05T20:48:00.001-07:00

So everyone, my weekend was pretty great. I bearly thought about work, my in-laws came, stocking my fridge (and belly!) with food, my little sis was here, and we all went to the renissance fesitval! There were the best ladies there called the "washing wenches". It was the best show I have ever seen. Of coarse, there were old favorites, such as "Puke and Snot", the jousting tournament, a rock band of bagpipes, and many friendly lords and ladies! We saw many vendors there, all selling fun goods. We saw from hats, to costumes, to huge turkey legs that you could carry around, eating like a person back in the day!!!
It was so much fun!
Sutton, (my step-mother-in-law,) my little sister, and I all went. My little sis didn't think that she would have fun, but I think that she is the one that had the best time! It is always so much fun to be surprised!!!
We were just leaving the fair, and it started pouring!!! We got drenched, and to make it even more hectic, we forgot where we parked. :P hehehe.
We got even more wet.
It was soooo much fun though. I got a cool hat, and I am deffenitly going to dress up next year. I had garb, but I didn't WEAR IT!!! Geeze, I wish I did!!! Oh well, DEFEINETLY next year.

2009-06-27T22:58:00.000-07:00

Somebody, give me a direction

2009-06-22T23:32:00.000-07:00

I believe that the Lord will give me a direction and a purpose in life, but I can't help but wonder what it will be, and will it be soon?
I have worked the same job now for eight years. I am comfortable there. But I always want to expand myself in some way.
Sometimes, I want to be an ESL teacher, so I study spanish hard for mabye a month, and then my ambition dissapears. I don't know what happens, but I suddenly am unmotivated.
Next, I wanted to be a physical instructor. I worked out, running every day, but that quickly got old as well.
Now, I just have no goals, no ambitions of what I want to do, and THAT is frustrating me.
I really like to have a goal, something to aim for, to give me hope.
Reading my diary the other night, I am amazed that just a few years ago, I wanted to travel the world, be in the peace core, and do all this crazy shit that I can't even imagine doing now.
I couldn't even do our Church's trip to Mexico for a week to build a house for a poor family. Forget about traveling the golbe, man!!! I'll stay home with my dog, cooking bannana bread, thank you very much!
I still would love to help people, but it seems the older I get, the more jaded I think people are. Harsh lessons in life, man. I really like to see the good in people, and with everyone I KNOW, I always view them for their best, but if a compleate stranger was walking towards me, I would think, eek! don't bother me!
I totally freak out, and assume the worst.
I am having trouble identifying what would be a good fit. I want a career, not just a job. I want something I am passonite about, something that I won't be ashamed of saying that I do for a living.
Help me, God, show me the light.

At the lake

2009-06-21T08:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was so much fun!!!
Matt and I both had the day off, so we went and did a whole lot of fun-ness!
When we first got up, my parents were still there, so Matt made omletts for fathers day. Then I gave dad his present, (coffee, thermos, and a picture flip thingy,)and they left shortly after.
Dad loved his present, but he wanted to get home to buy his own. An ATV!!!! Congratulations dad!!!
After they left, Matt and I loaded Squirt and Kody up, and took them down to the lake. It was so beautiful! It was overcast, so it wasn't too hot, and the flowers were blooming, no one was out because of the overlying threat of rain clouds, so we had the whole lake to ourselves. \
Kody tried to get some prarie dogs, but failed miserably.
I wouldn't let Squirt go, because he is the exact size of a prarie dog, and I don't know who would come out victorious; Squirt or the prarie dog. :)
After we got home, we went to a huge garden center that had so many cool statues, huge baskets of flowers, and plants, I wanted to stay there forever!!! Get my O2 on!!!
It was one of the best days here so far; a day of exploring and discovering, all with people and pets that I love.
Enjoy the video of our day!!!

Make a Smilebox photobook

2009-06-11T10:55:00.001-07:00

Make a Smilebox photobook

Love Story

2009-06-10T22:35:00.001-07:00

mini meltdown, just not yet

2009-06-10T22:22:00.000-07:00

Starting tomarrow, I will have 7 extra people in my house. AHHHH!!!!
Matt's dad, stepmom, and three brothers are comming down tomarrow, and then my mom and Becca are comming down Friday. EEEK!!!
*Breath*
And I have to feed all of them!!!
I was goign to make just some soup, but after I called and talked with his stepmom, she said that they would eat in Eagle, and then pick up more sandwiches to have at dinner!!!
Geeze, boys are pigs!
Mabye not, but they sure do eat alot more than girls!!!
I will be like the wicked old witch in Hanzel and Grettle; Glaring at all the kids while they eat me out of house and home.
Atleast they are bringing some stuff, both my mom and his parents.
Crazy!
Wish me luck, and send me your prayers!!!
Meg

Making Megan

GLEE - Mash up umbrella~!

Easter

Easter Baskets!

Growing up

Britt Nicole - The Lost Get Found

Bring The Rain by mercy me. Great lyrics!

God help me. Give me guidence

JJ Heller - What Love Really Means

What I love about Christmas

Comfort moments

Remember the Alamo!

A Camp'n we will go

Chicken wings, and other football things

One

New Pictures!

25 now

Yay for dogs

Blogs that make me happy

New box!

The past few weeks in pictures

Ran out

Arn't these cool?

What's love got to do with it?

For all girls!

Texas State History Museum

To all that I've accomplished, I give thanks to God

I love this song!

Making the most out of the day.

Squirts Swim attempt

July 4th weekend

Rain, Rain,

Through my eyes

Down at Barton springs

Down on 6th Street

New House pics!

South Carolina Pictures!!!

Its 6am. 24 hours till traveling time!

South Carolina, Day 3

South Carolina, Day 2

South Carolina, Day 1, Part 2

South Carolina, Day 1

Why can't all preformers still be this good live?

Drama mama

Owwie!!!

Phew! So much for Sunday being the day of relaxation!

Math should be burned at every ending class

Heather and I at Alice in Wonderland movie

Not quite ready to be a mom yet. . . much too fond of sleep

So many things are changing

Fighting for clarity

Sunday Mornings

To moms who inspire their daughters - its a great song

A good day

V. Day or D. Day?

Fairy Tales

God bless mom. I wouldn't be here otherwise

Hurt

Attention all friends, family, and alinaces: I need a ride

I wish I were a michanic, but I don't like to be dirty . . . or dirrty

Ok, Im a boss now. . . I just wish I was getting paid

When you are pushed against a wall, you see how hard you can come back.

Smelly feet

My favorite movie EVER!

Tea

Everyday life and its worries.

cross country skiing

Dream

Whinning about work: proceed with discression

Bro-eater

Reflection

feelings

*Sigh*

Trip

Pictures from a week ago in Washington.

The easiest way to a mans heart

whoo-hoo!

Live, from Washington

The "thank you for doing our plumming" pie

When shit happens, friends and family are there. . . but why did I have to be on both ends?

Sigh