After having my little green Taurus for 7 years, it died. I knew it was bad, (ok, really bad,) but to hear all that was wrong with it was so hurtful!
My poor little car!!! Pooh. I was just starting to take care of it, (i.e. clean out the inside so it didn't look like a garbage can.) and it goes kaput.
Poor little car. Thank you for being so good to me!!
As of now, I am currently without a viechle. I know I should be worried, but Im not. I have a bus pass, which I might add, I am getting pretty proficent with, plus, Matt and I have exactly the right schedual so it works out ok.
I really wish that my little car would have made it a couple of more months, but it wasn't ment to be, and matt and I are too poor to buy a new one, so hopefully this will make due!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Ok, for all of you writers out there who have a bachalors, masters, or just love to write, this is for you. An article was published in Self magazine this month, (it has Jessica Alba on the cover,) and it talks about this girl who has a masters in creative writing and is working at a grocery store.
It is fantastic!
I have been complaining for months that I have a bachalors and am stuck at a dead end retail job. This article made me feel better.
It is about this girl who, although works at a grocery store, has more time to write. In the article, it describes how she used to have a "respected" job as a teacher, but it was way stressful, and it didn't leave her any time for her own writing because she was so busy teaching other people to write. The job was stress filled nothingness for her, and she didn't even get to do what she wanted to to: write.
So now, working at a grocery store, she has more than 30 hours a week just to write, and not worry about anything. Of coarse, the age-old question comes up "you got a masters degree to stock cat food?"
Well, of coarse not, but why snuff at the hand that feeds you?
As much as I complain that I don't like my job, it is a job, and there are worse ones out there. It gives me and my husband great health insurance, and it gives me leave if ever a crisis comes up. It puts food on the table, lets me get my family some extra goodies, and helps me meet people. Plus, as the author said, I get more time to write!
Hummm . . . I was kind of inspired today at church, as well as this article. I think I will try to combine the two and make a brand new blog.
why not read the bible, and for every time I read, I have to find a passage I want to write about and how it relates into everyday life.
That sounds good!
By the way, to any of my fellow workers, I hate my job. I think if I were a non manager, it would be ok, but then I would be complaning that I don't even have a manger spot and working for mim wage with a bac. degree. I am never happy. I HATE MY JOB!!!
Ok, I feel better now.
It is fantastic!
I have been complaining for months that I have a bachalors and am stuck at a dead end retail job. This article made me feel better.
It is about this girl who, although works at a grocery store, has more time to write. In the article, it describes how she used to have a "respected" job as a teacher, but it was way stressful, and it didn't leave her any time for her own writing because she was so busy teaching other people to write. The job was stress filled nothingness for her, and she didn't even get to do what she wanted to to: write.
So now, working at a grocery store, she has more than 30 hours a week just to write, and not worry about anything. Of coarse, the age-old question comes up "you got a masters degree to stock cat food?"
Well, of coarse not, but why snuff at the hand that feeds you?
As much as I complain that I don't like my job, it is a job, and there are worse ones out there. It gives me and my husband great health insurance, and it gives me leave if ever a crisis comes up. It puts food on the table, lets me get my family some extra goodies, and helps me meet people. Plus, as the author said, I get more time to write!
Hummm . . . I was kind of inspired today at church, as well as this article. I think I will try to combine the two and make a brand new blog.
why not read the bible, and for every time I read, I have to find a passage I want to write about and how it relates into everyday life.
That sounds good!
By the way, to any of my fellow workers, I hate my job. I think if I were a non manager, it would be ok, but then I would be complaning that I don't even have a manger spot and working for mim wage with a bac. degree. I am never happy. I HATE MY JOB!!!
Ok, I feel better now.
Friday, January 29, 2010
I wish I were a michanic, but I don't like to be dirty . . . or dirrty
my poor poor car is broken. We took it to one machanic, he said it would be boo koo bucks to fix it, and we took it some where else for a second oppinion, and aalthough it would have been $500 less, it would still be boo koo bucks ($1,000) to fix it. So Matt and I are pulling a Matt and Heather. :P
We are sharring one car.
Since I have my student ID, I get to ride the bus for free, and it isn't too bad, plus, it is free so I do that sometimes. But when Matt can, he gives me rides.
My poor car though! I ve had it since 17! Poor baby.
Kinda stinks relying on having another person drive you around, but it works, so I can't complain.
Afterthought: Why do all mechanics have pictures of naked girls hanging up all over? Seriously, is working on cars all day not macho enough for you?! You have to have chick pics up so people will view you as a sexually endowed member of our soceity?
Whatever.
We are sharring one car.
Since I have my student ID, I get to ride the bus for free, and it isn't too bad, plus, it is free so I do that sometimes. But when Matt can, he gives me rides.
My poor car though! I ve had it since 17! Poor baby.
Kinda stinks relying on having another person drive you around, but it works, so I can't complain.
Afterthought: Why do all mechanics have pictures of naked girls hanging up all over? Seriously, is working on cars all day not macho enough for you?! You have to have chick pics up so people will view you as a sexually endowed member of our soceity?
Whatever.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Ok, Im a boss now. . . I just wish I was getting paid
Today was our big bounce back tour. Our district manager came in, and judged how we looked. Since Kelly wasn't there for the tour, there wasn't anyone to represent softlines; except me.
I walked with Rick!
It was totally crazy. I didn't really know what to say, but I guess I did ok, b/c he told David that I was a "win" for the store.
Yay me!
My day was going fantastic, until Matt called and told me that he was going to be studying with his group (HOE!) tomarrow night at 5pm, and didn't know when he was going to be home.
Bad desia vue!
I am really nervous about him going. I really really don't want him to go. I don't know what is going to happen, but it won't be good. I just want to escape from this all. I hate feeling this nervous.
I walked with Rick!
It was totally crazy. I didn't really know what to say, but I guess I did ok, b/c he told David that I was a "win" for the store.
Yay me!
My day was going fantastic, until Matt called and told me that he was going to be studying with his group (HOE!) tomarrow night at 5pm, and didn't know when he was going to be home.
Bad desia vue!
I am really nervous about him going. I really really don't want him to go. I don't know what is going to happen, but it won't be good. I just want to escape from this all. I hate feeling this nervous.
When you are pushed against a wall, you see how hard you can come back.
This is what my manager told me after we met today. I told her I was feeling lost. I didn't know what I wanted in my personal life, (should I stay? Should I go? Am I wasting my time here? Is he going to leave me?) and I didn't know what I wanted to do for a profession. Teach, you get summers, holidays, and weekends off. However, you have to jump through alot of bridges, and anoying kids (and equally anoying parents). I was feeling alot of draw back in my current job situation. I felt like I was going backwards with my progress. Last September, and all though the holidays, I was a kick ass boss. I coached, I confronted, I didn't have any problem with it. Lately, I have been like, "I don't care if you don't work. I just dont feel like getting into it."
I told Kelly this, and she said,
You know, when Treva was gone, you stepped up. You created an alyance with Sue to get the job done, you delegated tasks, and did coachings with confidence.
In September, when Matt left and came back, you had to make a dissision.
It is no coincedence that these two mirror each other. When you are pushed against the wall, and have to make a dissision, you feel much more confident because you know that YOU are the one who made it. You thrive when it seems like the perfect time to fail.
Yay me!
Looking back on it, it was a really strong growing part in my life. I no longer stay awake at night caring what someone thinks of me, (although I do still lie awake not knowing for certin that I am with the lomyl)and I feel like I have taken my first step toward being an adult.
I told Kelly this, and she said,
You know, when Treva was gone, you stepped up. You created an alyance with Sue to get the job done, you delegated tasks, and did coachings with confidence.
In September, when Matt left and came back, you had to make a dissision.
It is no coincedence that these two mirror each other. When you are pushed against the wall, and have to make a dissision, you feel much more confident because you know that YOU are the one who made it. You thrive when it seems like the perfect time to fail.
Yay me!
Looking back on it, it was a really strong growing part in my life. I no longer stay awake at night caring what someone thinks of me, (although I do still lie awake not knowing for certin that I am with the lomyl)and I feel like I have taken my first step toward being an adult.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Smelly feet
Last night my mother in law came into town to stay with us while her son was in a wresting match. We went and picked her up around 9pm, and by 1030, I was ready to hit the sack. I laid there in bed for a while till Matt came up, and then I realized I forgot to take one of my pills.
"I'll be right back!" I said.
I opened the door, and the most pungent, disgusting, ranky smell hit me.
I started freaking out.
"Matt! One of the dogs pooped!!! Get out here!"
"Nah, it is just Sutton's feet." He said, ready to konk out in 2.5 seconds.
"Matt, get OUT here!!!!" I was getting angrier by the second. Searching for the poop, I went all around the spare room. Not finding it there, I went downstairs where the odor became more pungent.
Oh my gosh, seriously? This was someones feet?! I laid there for a while, the smell comming into my nostorals for hours afterwards, not believing that a person could smell that bad.
Whatever the case, two things were decided this morning.
1. I was overly extatic that my house didn't smell.
2. I was going to bleach the sheets that she had slept on. Yuck!
"I'll be right back!" I said.
I opened the door, and the most pungent, disgusting, ranky smell hit me.
I started freaking out.
"Matt! One of the dogs pooped!!! Get out here!"
"Nah, it is just Sutton's feet." He said, ready to konk out in 2.5 seconds.
"Matt, get OUT here!!!!" I was getting angrier by the second. Searching for the poop, I went all around the spare room. Not finding it there, I went downstairs where the odor became more pungent.
Oh my gosh, seriously? This was someones feet?! I laid there for a while, the smell comming into my nostorals for hours afterwards, not believing that a person could smell that bad.
Whatever the case, two things were decided this morning.
1. I was overly extatic that my house didn't smell.
2. I was going to bleach the sheets that she had slept on. Yuck!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
My favorite movie EVER!
I love this movie! So many different quotable quotes! Notice in the picture how it says "Princess Bride" both right side up, and up side down? I love the reflection in this pic because it goes to show that we all have a princess or pirate in us.
Tea
Now, you may think this is a weird blog post, but just hear me out. When you are sick, and can't swallow anything, what feels good on a sore thorat? Tea. When you are sad, and want to cry over a steaming mug of something? Tea. What do you drink when you want to feel fancy? Tea!! (Pinkies up, please!)
I do believe that lattes and carmel machiattos (although very good) have taken away the enjoyment of tea.
Protest world!
Quit drinking a $4 cup of carmely goodness, and settle for the simplicity of tea. There are so many different types, you can't get bored!
Added bounus: Way healthy for you. :P
Friday, January 8, 2010
Everyday life and its worries.
EEk! I start school in less than 2 weeks. I am so nervous!!! I went to get my ID, and it was really hard/frustrating because there are three schools in 1 here! If you get in the wrong line, or go into the wrong section of the bookstore, you are doomed!!
Further more, I have to ride the bus, 1, because my car absolutly will not make it, and 2, parking downtown is a disaster. Ok, not to be judmental, but has anyone seen the people who ride the bus?!? Most do not look friendly. I keep trying to tell myself once school is in, it will be mostly students, but will it?Who knows. I don't even know if teaching is what I want to do!!! I really like the schedual, thats all. Summers off, yes please. Weekends too, that would be great. Plus, half the time, you would be doing arts and crafts for some holiday, so I really wouldn't be teaching at all. Valentines day, for example, a week before, I would have them work on those shoeboxes to turn them into card holders. Humm. . . That I could definetly do. But the bad, anoying kids? I will want to rip my hair out. The parent teacher confrence? Shudder.
Seriously, I could go to school right now, and in the same time it would take me to become a teacher, I could get my nursing license. They only work 3 days a week!!! That would be fabulous. But . . . ewww! . . . sick people?! I would give them tea and rest and send them on their way.
Matt starts school in a week too, and that weighs heavy on my mind, because he still has f"***ng senior design with that slut and horror. Whatever, promise me all you want, but the damage is done. Seriously, you wonder why I am ultimatly cranky when you are an hour late? Hummm . . . lets take a moment and reflect on the past year. .
And no you cannot take a job that will have you gone for 6 months at a time!!! Are you kidding me?!?!
Thank you Matt, I can no longer read romances. My dear H., I couldn't even finnish "Mr. Darcy, Vampire". I will bring it back with me next time I come up.
I got season 3 of the Tudors. I really don't like it very much. Too bloody, and too much deception.
The question "WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!?!" Is pleauging me to no end. My whole being is in question right now. Am I wasting time, staying with someone who MIGHT break their word? What will I do for a carreer? Am I wasting time/money on a majior that I am unsure of? WHY AM I STILL AT THE SAME JOB I WAS AT FOR THE LAST 8 YEARS!? I really want a tattoo, but will I in a couple of years, when I get a "real" job? Will I ever get a real job? I want to have kids by the time Im 30, so if I get out of school in 3 years, that will make me, . . 27!!! Good God, might as well be a profesional student. 27 . . . That seems so old. Wow. H, do you feel that old? I know you atleast feel grown up, miss got a house and dog planning to have a baby soon. :) Geeze, you must even have morgage payments. Man. I am NOT ready for those yet!
OOOh, and my car!!! It doesn't work!!! Took it in, payed 400 dollars for it, but is it fixed. Ha. Yeah right. I don't think cars work past a certin age, that or I got compleatly ripped off, and they didn't do jack s**t to my car. Poor car! It was good while it lasted. Please last one more year!!! I am promised a 4-runner for Christmas!(Yeah, I know. We will see.)
Dose anyone else have these stresses? I feel like I am going around and round in circles, and by the time everything stopps, I will be 30 + years old. That is 10 away from 40 people, and we all know how fast 10 years flies by!
Further more, I have to ride the bus, 1, because my car absolutly will not make it, and 2, parking downtown is a disaster. Ok, not to be judmental, but has anyone seen the people who ride the bus?!? Most do not look friendly. I keep trying to tell myself once school is in, it will be mostly students, but will it?Who knows. I don't even know if teaching is what I want to do!!! I really like the schedual, thats all. Summers off, yes please. Weekends too, that would be great. Plus, half the time, you would be doing arts and crafts for some holiday, so I really wouldn't be teaching at all. Valentines day, for example, a week before, I would have them work on those shoeboxes to turn them into card holders. Humm. . . That I could definetly do. But the bad, anoying kids? I will want to rip my hair out. The parent teacher confrence? Shudder.
Seriously, I could go to school right now, and in the same time it would take me to become a teacher, I could get my nursing license. They only work 3 days a week!!! That would be fabulous. But . . . ewww! . . . sick people?! I would give them tea and rest and send them on their way.
Matt starts school in a week too, and that weighs heavy on my mind, because he still has f"***ng senior design with that slut and horror. Whatever, promise me all you want, but the damage is done. Seriously, you wonder why I am ultimatly cranky when you are an hour late? Hummm . . . lets take a moment and reflect on the past year. .
And no you cannot take a job that will have you gone for 6 months at a time!!! Are you kidding me?!?!
Thank you Matt, I can no longer read romances. My dear H., I couldn't even finnish "Mr. Darcy, Vampire". I will bring it back with me next time I come up.
I got season 3 of the Tudors. I really don't like it very much. Too bloody, and too much deception.
The question "WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!?!" Is pleauging me to no end. My whole being is in question right now. Am I wasting time, staying with someone who MIGHT break their word? What will I do for a carreer? Am I wasting time/money on a majior that I am unsure of? WHY AM I STILL AT THE SAME JOB I WAS AT FOR THE LAST 8 YEARS!? I really want a tattoo, but will I in a couple of years, when I get a "real" job? Will I ever get a real job? I want to have kids by the time Im 30, so if I get out of school in 3 years, that will make me, . . 27!!! Good God, might as well be a profesional student. 27 . . . That seems so old. Wow. H, do you feel that old? I know you atleast feel grown up, miss got a house and dog planning to have a baby soon. :) Geeze, you must even have morgage payments. Man. I am NOT ready for those yet!
OOOh, and my car!!! It doesn't work!!! Took it in, payed 400 dollars for it, but is it fixed. Ha. Yeah right. I don't think cars work past a certin age, that or I got compleatly ripped off, and they didn't do jack s**t to my car. Poor car! It was good while it lasted. Please last one more year!!! I am promised a 4-runner for Christmas!(Yeah, I know. We will see.)
Dose anyone else have these stresses? I feel like I am going around and round in circles, and by the time everything stopps, I will be 30 + years old. That is 10 away from 40 people, and we all know how fast 10 years flies by!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
cross country skiing
Matt and I went for the second time this winter cross country skiing. I know it doesn't sound like alot, but it is two more times than we went last winter, and 2 more things more we did outside than last summmer, so I am psyched!
I am glad we went, but yesterday, when I woke up, skiing was the last thing I wanted to do. Actually, the last thing was spending time with hubby, but when it is only you two skiing,it comes down to being the same thing.
I don't know why, mabye it is the new year thing and the pressure of time, but I have been feeling sooo depressed lately. From the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to bed, I just have a feeling of abandonment. Even though he is right there, I keep living in September. I can't shake it off, no matter how hard I try. I know matt gets mad because he has been trying these last months to make it up to me, and hasn't done anything since september, but I still feel like it just happened, and the weight of it is crushing down on me. Sometimes, it is like I can't breathe.
Last night my family came and stayed with us. They were on their way back from Iowa, and were off first thing this morning to go back home. Even though they were here for such a little period of time, my heart broke as they left. I want to go back to being a kid again! I want to go back before everything, and tell myself what I know now. Would it make a difference?
I am glad we went, but yesterday, when I woke up, skiing was the last thing I wanted to do. Actually, the last thing was spending time with hubby, but when it is only you two skiing,it comes down to being the same thing.
I don't know why, mabye it is the new year thing and the pressure of time, but I have been feeling sooo depressed lately. From the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to bed, I just have a feeling of abandonment. Even though he is right there, I keep living in September. I can't shake it off, no matter how hard I try. I know matt gets mad because he has been trying these last months to make it up to me, and hasn't done anything since september, but I still feel like it just happened, and the weight of it is crushing down on me. Sometimes, it is like I can't breathe.
Last night my family came and stayed with us. They were on their way back from Iowa, and were off first thing this morning to go back home. Even though they were here for such a little period of time, my heart broke as they left. I want to go back to being a kid again! I want to go back before everything, and tell myself what I know now. Would it make a difference?
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