Family time

Well, my mother in law and sister in law are here. It actually is turning out better than I thought it would. (at least I think so . . .)
We had our ham dinner tonight, our virsion of Christmas dinner for them. It was nice, but I didn't quite cook the ham all the way through!!!
We opened presents, and I got some pretty stuff from bath and body works, along with some chocholate and earings. . .
Work continues to be icky.
Before Christmas, it was crazy trying to get things people needed for the holidays, but now, it is just as busy because people want Christmas to go 75 percent off. . .Idiots. They keep calling, but we cant tell them. how anoyoing.

Eve and counting

We had gone back last weekend to celebrate Christmas, so tonight hardly feels like Christmas eve at all!! Matt and I still had fun though. We watched Wall-E, (not as bad as I thought,) went to church, where the people were really nice and introduced themselves, and drank eggnog. (I tried it hot . . .not so good.) We also opened one present from "santa" (a.k.a., my step-mother-in-law,) We got a blueberry disign serving plate and punch bowl. Perfect for spring!
Church was cool. It was laid out like a grandma and grandpa reading infront of the fire place, christmas trees on either side of them. They would say a sermon, and then the chior would join in and sing about the sermon. Ex. They were talking how the angels appeeared to the shepperds, and then the choir sang "Hark! The hearld angels sing." It was lovely. Then at the end, we all lit the candles, and the preacher talked about how almighty God gave himself in the most vunarable form: a baby. And that Jesus comes softly into our lives, not like, clouds parting, angels singing, ect.
It was cool except for these 10 kids, (all from the same mom!) kept yelling. Keep it down!! Enough with the holiday spirit!!!
Just kidding.


I thought that the holiday was going to be really though, but it isnt as bad as I thought. Yeah, I miss my family, my dog, and my one friend who still stays in touch with me, (thanks!) but like I said, it already felt like Christmas. Now, it just feels like a Matt and Megan holiday. . . an extra day to show eachother how much we love each other by wearing pjs all day, and eating till we get a stomach ache. :)

My favorite video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnM0H5iEV38

Ok, I know I wrote about how much I love this song, but there is a good meaning in it!!! It says, "Love, it might be difficult, but it's real." So true!!!
Marriage is really hard, and I complain every day, but I love being married. Difficult, yes, but its the real thing. Its life, its what you live for.

to tatoo?

Ok, so I have wanted a tatoo for a while now, but suddenly, ok, since I got married, I haven't wanted one. Yeah, Matt would get mad, but I just have no desire to get one. But then I just read an old magazine article about Angelina Jolie, and I want to get a tattoo, die my hair red like I wanted, and be totally crazy!!!

Back to my roots, away from my husband.

Well, I am finally back in my home town! I am so excited. Being home for the holidays makes me realize how much more freedom I have here. I started to get depressed, thinking the reason I don't have freedom at home, is because someone takes it away from me.
But is it really him?
Or . . .
Is it the reality of growing up I hate? I hate having to cook, do dishes, work, and still be in a civil mood. (Whatever if it sounds bitter.)
It may be a little of each. I just view the "necisarry" things like, "uh, why can't you do it?" attitude. Then get mad if he doesn't. I want more time where I can do this, . .write, spend time to visit family, shop around, visit friends, have coffee, but then its like, "oh, I have to go to work to be able to do it all." Then I get bummed again.

Burrr!!! Its cold outside!

Matt and I took Kody for a hike yesterday, and a walk today. It was so much fun , but cold!!! Kody sliped and slidded like he was Bambi. (You know, that scene when Thumper is trying to get him to skate?) Yup, he looked just like that.

Finally, Pictures!!!

Matt, Kody, and me with our Christmas tree!!!

Matt stealing candy from me!

Finally, I downloaded all pictures for people to see!!! Here is baby Kody. Cute! He has grown so much!!

BURRRRRRR!!!!

ok, it was sooooo cold today! It was snowing uber early, and it was still snowing at 4:30! It was crazy. I took Kody out for a walk, and only went around the block. I had a long sleeve shirt on, a vest, and a coat. Not to mention mittins and scarf! At least Kody seemed to be enjoying himself.

Holidays a comm'n

Holy cow, it is December. Whoa!!!
Does anyone else feel like november was non-existant?
The day after Thanksgiving, while I was working, (BOO!) Matt and my fam got a tree. It is so pretty! Matt and I put lights and tensel on it, but since we hate decorating, that is as far as we got. Yup, it has been that way for 5 days. Oh well.

Thanksgiving goodness

My whole family came down for thanksgiving. It was really nice, because normally one of my sisters has to work, has school, or something, so it was really special for all of us to be in my home together for a few days. They came in on Wed. night, and me and my mom decided we would get up about 6:30ish to do the turkey. I think God had other plans. At 3:00 am (AM!!) someones phone was going dead, and was beeping loudly every couple of minutes. After laying awake for an hour and a half waiting for someone else to hear it, I got up, went to my parents room, and said, "One of your phones is beeping!"

My mom got up with me to look for it, and finally we found the culprit. Thanks alot dad, for not turning your phone off!!!
Well, it was quarter till 5, and me and my mom were like, "might as well start the turkey now." So that's what we did. With three dogs running around, we stuffed, chopped, and finally slid into the oven a perfect turkey.
It was only 5:30, so me and my mom went back to bed. The minute I climbed in, matt told me how bad I stunk. Oh yeah, I was cutting up onions baaby.
I just snuggled down close to him, letting him be close to his beautiful smelly wife. :)
I slept till 10, but hey, I was tiered! And the worst part of it was, no one would let me eat b/c we were going to be eating in an hour! I was hungry!
So we decided to have our cheese ball and champane then. Boy, what a way to wake up!
My sis got drunk off of it, and my other sis, (only 14!) was alowed some too. thakfully she didn't like it.
So much fun!
I can't wait to go home for Christmas!

Beautiful fall day!

Well, today was one of the best days Ive had in a long time. I got up, did yoga, went to church. The church I go to is right beside the library, so I went there and, caught up on my reading. . . hem . . Ok, so I rented three movies . . . judge me. Then I went to a little german bakery, (Im protesting starbucks) and had a chai. It wasn't very good, but I didn't give in!
When I got home, I had lunch, then Matt and I played football. However, our yard is not very football-y, so our trees are missing half their branches. Ooops! Oh well. They needed to be trimmed anyway. :)
Our dogs were chasing us all around, trying to get the football, and at the end, we just let them have it. It is kind of like seeing a dorky kid in the middle of keep away, and you feel so bad, you just let them have it. Now I have a vision of my dog with buck teeth and glasses.

YAY!

Ok, it may not be a big deal to some people, like pedestrieans or Almish, but I filled my car up for $18!!!! Gas is 1.99!!! Yay! It hasn't been that low since I first started driving. That is one good thing about the elections. Gas cut its prices in half! Instead of 4-something, it is 1 or 2 something! Hopefully it keeps going down. We'll see.
(Yes, I know it is silly to post an entire post about gas, but Im really excited.)

Finally Friday!

Well, it is finally friday! No work this weekend! We had a big visit from our district boss, and thin HIS boss, so hopefully it went ok. We don't know yet, but hopefully!
Matt and I just got done watching "Get Smart" with Anne Hathaway and Steve Clemente. We liked it so much in theaters, that we just went out and bought it. It was so funny. If you haven't seen it yet, I highly recomend it. Some parts are so funny!
My novel is going good. I probobly won't make the novel length requirments, but I am typing more than I ever have, so that is nice to get back in the groove of.
I am attempting to read one of Jane Austen's novel that is not a movie. Normally, I read the first couple chapters, then cheat and watch the movie. That way, when I say, "Why yes, I have read Austin," I am not compleatly lying. (for all you english majiors out there, quit rolling your eyes.) I am reading Persuation. It is good, but hard to keep some of the characters straight. Wish me luck!

nano!

I started my book, Nov. 1st, just like I was supposed to! It is a western, and going much better than I expected! I can't wait to finnish it! Yoohoo!

We have a guest in our house. He is a little different. He only eats two different foods, and he bought himself a cake yesterday, and won't share. Pardon me for sounding elementry, but if you are at someones house, don't you atleast offer them a piece of your cake that you bought? Just my thoughts.

Does anyone else have this problem?!?!?

Ok, so I get home from working a full 8 1/2 hour day. Matt's friend is comming today. Wouldn't you think he'd clean the house??!?! I don't get it. Not even the spare bedroom where he is STAYING is clean. WHAT IS WITH BOYS!?? OOOOh , Im so mad right now, it is a good thing he went to go pick up his friend at the airport. Geeze. . . He isn't even working! He has all the time in the world. But what does he do? He says that he is studying, and that it is really hard, and ect ect ect. The biggest one is that I don't understand. I hate it when he says that. I have gone to school too you know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right. THAT many exclimation points!
Plus, now that it is cold, I can't go running to relieve my stress. I sit at home and stew. It makes me so mad. Are all husbands like this? Tell me they are so I won't feel so undermined as a woman, and feel like Im going backwards for our general sex.

Oh, on a lighter note, I rented The Jane Austin Book Club. It was actually quite delieghtful.

Halloween

Well, I worked this morning, it was crazy! There are tons of people who wait till the last minnute to buy stuff.
Anyway, yesterday, matt and I bought some candy to give out, and then tonight, he wanted to shut the light off, and not have any trick o treaters. Scrooge! I called my mom and dad and complained, and they said what if everyone was like us, then WE wouldn't have even gotten candy when we were little.
I told Matt that I was turning the light on, and I must have had an edge, b/c he didn't say anything back.
The first kids we had were these cute little girls. Princesses and Mirmades! CUTE!
I can't wait to have a cute little kid. (But mabye for a few more years, I can hold out. :))

Not my kid, but whatever, its cute.

Pumpkin time!

I got a pumpkin for Matt and I to carve about a week ago, and since it is the day before Halloween, I figure we better carve it. I HATE actually carving it, and Matt hates digging out the guts, so I did the digging, and Matt, hehehe, is still carving it.
He asked me what disign I wanted, and I told him the wolf one. He is carving the skelleton one. Go figure. Why even ask? Oh well, I really didn't care. its just a pumpkin.
Kody kept eating everythig I was pulling out. . . seeds, guts, everything. He is going to be one fat puppy!

Ewww! Wet Dog!

Ok, so I woke up, went downstairs to eat breakfast, and ten minutes latter, Matt is comming down, he is wrapped in a towel, and so is his little golden retriver puppy. They both are soaking wet.
"What happened!?" I asked.
"I was talking a shower, and Kody (the dog,) wanted in!"
"And you let him in?"
"Yeah, he liked it!"
Just then the smell of wet dog hit me.
"Get him outside!"
"No! He will get all muddy."
Pull my hair out. It smelled soooo gross in my house, that I have been cooking very smelly meals all day to get rid of the icky oder. (I know that isn't how you spell it, but I don't care. We are talking about a perminant wet dog smell in my house!)

Just so people know,

Hey everyone,
Nanorhyno (or however you spell it) starts pretty soon, so get your writing gear out, dust off your computers, and look at Heather and I in last years Free Press! (Ok, so the last one gets ME excited, but you know) I am so excited to be writing again! I feel like I have lost my touch and need to dust off my writiers pen so to speak. I am sooooo going to write a novel this month! Watch me!

GJ!

I finally went home for the weekend. And get this: I drove myself! Thats right. Me. Never even drove half way, drove myself. I was just so sick and tiered of being away from my family and my friend (the whole one I have back in GJ) that I just told Matt that if it was good weather, I was going. And the weather couldn't have been better. I think God was watching over me, because I really needed to go home. I was so homesick. But now, things look better, and I think going home and getting comfy in my roots helped me alot. I don't know how you explain it.
When you go home, you just get a feeling of protection. Like when you get home from school, and you don't have to pretend anymore. You can just let your hair down and laugh when something is funny, be a bitch when you are grumpy, and sleep in without a dog whining in your ear!
Poor Squirt didn't want to come home! I told my mom if she wanted, I could leave him at her house till thanksgiving, but she said that he was my dog, and I would be lonely if I left him. I would have been, but poor squirt! It is so obvious that he liked being home! His tail was wagging non-stop, playing with Smokey, a dog that is actually his size, and my whole family loved him.

Guess what I did when I was home though? Canned Apple sauce! It was awsome. That is my favorite part of fall. Mom let me bring home two jars of it, so we can have homade apple sauce this winter.
It was so funny when I got out of my car. Lisa and Becca were both pulling weeds out front, then Becca looks up, she didn't smile, she just looked dumfounded. Then Lisa looked up, Squeeled "Hey!" and they both ran over. They were like, "when did you get here, where is matt, blah blah blah" Then we went inside where mom was talking on the phone, and she saw me, had the same, "I don't believe it" looks, and said, "Mom, I gotta go" hung up the phone, and gave me a hug. It was the best hug in the world.

Its official. I miss home. So much. I am tiered of living without my family. Matt says that he is my family now, and isn't he good enough, but in truth, no. I miss my mom and little sis most of all. My mom is always there, and my sis is always growing and changing. I miss all my friends who I could be myself around. All the people I know here are from work, so there is a certian level of myself I can be around, but that s it. I miss it so bad! It gets even worse when I can't go home b/c my hubby is "too busy to take me". (call me a chicken, but I won't drive when there is snow in the mountians. Scarry!)
I am going to have him move back when he is finnished w/school. (2 more years. . . eek!) I don't know if I can make it that long.

Sweet tidings

Well, it was a fun, whirlwind weekend. True, I had to work all weekend, closing, (ick!) but my family came down and stayed the night with me. I love it when they come down. They keep me so grounded and I feel so loved and myslef when they are around. We all went out for breakfast, but it was over too soon. They left, and the next time won't be till thanksgiving. Man!
My mom did bring me new curtians though! They are so pretty, and pull our whole living room together. Yay moms!
AND
My little sis, who Ive been trying to teach spanish too, has finally taken a class, and can speak it now. Yay!

The Price of happiness

Well, I have been back and forth upon learning a new language. Not actually learning it, persay, but buying the $700 materials in order to learn it. I really want to be fulent in a language, but it is so expensivee, and Im afraid that I don't have the time! I really think it would be soo cool to just start speaking another language, and the person you are with is like, "woah".
I also wanted to get a key board. I love Amy Lee from Evanescence! She has one of the best voices, and I want to sound just like her some day. So, $700 + $100 equals, with tax, probobly 1,000 big ones. Do I really want to spend that much? I am happy now, but I think I will be so much more satisfied if I get that language set. Is it worth it? Should I wait? I have no idea. Logic: I probobly should wait. Plus, Matt would be mad. We don't have the money to waist right now. Wanting/Engilsh passioate side: Buy it and be free! Do what you want to do!

Boys will be boys

Well, after Ray came over, my hubby and him stayed up till 3 in the morning. Take into acount that our puppy gets up at 4 or 5, and he is the one who has to get up with it, so he was pretty tiered.
And Grumpy.
After Ray left, he was a totall butt, and I told him that tonight, i would be taking care of the dog so he could sleep.
Well, now Im cranky!
Anyway, he was saying how we need to get a wii. No way! after that!? no thanks.

Wedding Pictures!

Cool Saying

If anyone is getting down on themselves, I found such a cool saying, that it has to be shared.

Weekend gone wacky

Well, I was supposed to be going back home, but the weather was really bad, and I didn't get off of work till late, so I am stuck here. It is not all bad though. Matt is being really sweet and cooking dinner for me at night, and his buddy Ray came over, who I like hanging out with.
Anyway, work is kind of stinky. I had to write some one up who I didn't even think was doing a bad job, but my boss said that I had to, so I basicly told the worker that the boss thought she was doing this wrong, and please correct it. I hope she doesn't hate me!
Although it is Sunday tomarrow, I don't think we will go to church. (Again. . . boo) Ray is spending the night, and Matt will probobly want to hand out with him in the morning. Hummm... I really want to find a cool, christian church to go to. There is one 15 miles from my house, but Im not sure that Im up for that. We will see!

Friends at last!

Well, I just got done with a hecktic, but fun day at work. I really love it there. But anyway, I met a friend there, and she invited my hubby and i to dinner. It was so much fun! We all sat around a fire, just talking. It was lovely, and it took my mind off alot of things. But I have to work at 6 am . . .AGAIN, tomarrow, so I am back bummed again.

Well, I just got offered to be one of the managers at the place that I have worked at since I was 16.....16! It is really great of them to offer, and my college degree would finally be worth something. But I don't know if I want it. Heck, I barely like my job NOW, and I am just the middle boss. I don't know. I don't think I will take it. It would be wonderful to get the extra cash and all, but I don't want to work that much. I want to be home. Well, for the most part. I guess it might get me out of dishes and dinner a few nights a week, but other than that, I don't know if I would like the responsibility of it. Humm...

Post-wedding depression

So, after a week of being married, most couples would be on a honymoon. Nope. Not us. Real life to attend to!!!
Perhaps that is what started it. It was too short lived. Everyone says that your wedding day is the best day of your life. The day you have imagined since you were little. And then, in one short night, it is gone. After all that planning, stressing, and anticipating, it is done.
It was like a fairytale. I had never been the center of attention before. It was the best thing to be the one everyone looked at and thought, "wow, she looks great." I felt like the perfect bride.
But all too soon, I was thrown back into reality. Where I had no one but my husband to look at me, and no one but myself to make me beautiful. Back to work, I was one of many, doing things my supiriors didn't want to. Pooh. If only I had something to strive for.